gaoxian

: D

2011-03-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

hey peeps
just wanna say something .
so what if you're obsessed .
so what
no one's going to like you
even if you like someone .
why keep on waiting
why
i keep asking myself
but i end up with no answer .
i'm troubled confused puzzled

tired of thinking .
maybe i should just let this go on .
till .................
forever .

i don't know
this is a little crazy
i'm mad .
i'm crazy
wahahahahaha
lol
what the

anyway i have to wake up damn early tomorrow
troubled with so much problems ,
i don't know when on earth would i be as carefree as ever .
this is getting too painful .
too torturous .
too demoralising

i know you'll probably never notice neither my blog posts
facebook messages , statuses .
or even sms-es .

ah
but
it's okay
like what i've said
i'll keep on waiting .
waiting
and
waiting .
till ,
:) .

i sound stupid
i sound retarded
but
maybe
thats the way
it should be .
to keep waiting
till
:)

ah , time to dream again .
weeee .
bye peeps .
signing off ,
gaoxian .

400th post

2011-03-08T20:07:00.000+08:00

hey peeps ,
this is the 400th post .
lol .
anyway
i'm still struggling with so much homework .
sigh

class got better .
but some , still remain as the same .
loooooooooooool , lets not give a damn .
:)

cause show-offs shall stay as show-offs ,
and i'm cool about it .
i didn't do that well for my chem assignment
but
whatever

i'm not yet doing my math homework
i must be mad !
:)
yet i'm still busy typing stuff here .
am i crazy ?

i'm dreaming
i'm sleeping
i'm tired
i'm sick
i'm sick and tired
of all these homework and sheat .

sigh
i'm going through this ordeal ,
without knowing what i want in the end .
i feel like a headless chicken
talking about chicken
i better go and feed it now and water the plants
and go to sleep .
today is fail .
no homework done .
damn

have fun guys
sally = sery ?
why the link is all those crappy things 0.0
errrrrrr to ... working ?
homework fun ?
you sure ?

anyway
bye .
signing off
gaoxian

Party animal

2011-03-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

hey peeps .
back to typing once again .
today was awesome .

although i didn't get any ukulele ,
i'm glad that i got my ripcurl rashvest .
:)

i don't know .
if i was made for the purpose of homework
i wouldn't have a choice , but just to do them .
everything seems to be optional ,
but realistically ,
everything is compulsory .

i know i've been slacking all these while .
but it seems just so hard to keep mugging .
i'm losing that fire .
the passion to continue mugging .
when you don't really understand the subject .
such as maths .

i'm like supposed to finish it and hand in tml ,
yet i'm not yet done with chinese essays .
and still , i'm blogging .
what's wrong with me ?
i don't know .

i'm not buff .
i'm not clever .
but i'm happy for the fact that
i'm rather hardworking .

i won't give up this fight .
its going to be tiring .
its going to be painful .
but i know that at the end of the day ,
i've done what i'm supposed to do , and i've accomplished my mission being on earth ,
just to do homework
LOL .

sounds stupid but indeed
that's what's happening .
i see different people from many different jcs .
mugging in the library everyday .
i saw linghao lots of times .
what am i doing when everyone's mugging ?
slacking
playing the guitar
watching tv
searching for random crap
reflecting why do I look so dumb
thinking how to make myself better .

i don't know
i got no answers
but i believe in my blue / green / bright green socks
yay
i'm so rebellious
the dm can't catch me
even the dm can't handle me !
HAHAA LOL , cause my pants are so baggy
till it reaches the floor .
so

there's a very low probability that he'll be able to catch me .
hope i won't be late tomorrow for school .
i've been late once , by one step only .
wow what a good record i have
yay

ok time to finish homework
i sound like a nerd
actually maybe i'm one .
i'm losing my life
i'm losing my soul to homework
homework
and more homework

i know i shouldn't be complaining
since many others are facing this too .
but i'm not as smart as them
i don't understand
but i still try
i'm trying so hard .

sad life
ah
lets go
chiong
homework
bye guys
signing off
gaoxian

frustration

2011-03-06T08:57:00.000+08:00

its a sad sight
it's so sad to hear from my dad
that

i deserved to be scolded
because the teacher was talking bullshit
i was multi-tasking the research crap and youtube .
there was a empty comp. beside and it is turned on .
just use that la , if you're so unhappy with me .

so , he thinks that i'm at fault
i deserved to be scolded
thats how you can make friends
keep getting scolded
then the guy will feel superior over you
then he'll make "friends" with you
what the
for the whole period
damn

what kind of shit is this
are we at different levels ?
i doubt he's rich
i know he's not from anywhere good .
i'm not rich , i'm also not from anywhere good .
so

sigh
i'm going off to meet hans to see stuff
and to get a new pair of swimming trunks
weeeeeeeeeeee .
have fun people
bye
signing off
gaoxian

Vulgarities

2011-03-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

i hate vulgarities .
i hate people spouting at me vulgarities every single moment ,
for my every single action
i experienced this today
this was hell .

monday is going to be worse
:)
so lets look forward to it .

life
is
getting worse
but
since this is fate .
i shall accept it , and mug like a nerd .
: / .
countless people look down on me .

its not me being sensitive .
thats the truth .
the absolute truth .

damn
why do i have to suffer all these .
to make myself stronger .
: |

i will be stronger .

its okay if i'm alone .
its really okay
i'm getting used to it
i hope i'll be numb to pain

numb to your insults
numb to your vulgarities
numb to you .

i don't understand why
i don't understand how
i don't understand what made you do those things

do I really suck that much
i didn't do anything wrong
i believe
in my opinion .

i didn't tell you say the F word so frequently ,
that within a period i can get shot by more than perhaps 20 F words .
what the heck .
thats coming out from a single person .
:)

but at least .
some people know what shit i'm facing now .
: / ,
but it's not really gonna help .
since , assholes will stay as assholes .
a leopard won't change its spots .

its so tough
being a chinese representative .
or just being a normal classmate .
i got no accompany .
i got no one .
i'm actually quite glad that i have a shadow .
at least after everyday ,

when i go home in the night ,
i'll have accompany .

:/
i don't know
nowadays , days seem to past like years .
homework seems to be flooding my brains
i seem to be dropping hair
i'm not complaining
cause this is the life i chosen .

:)
from the day i chosen that school ,
i didn't really regret it .
but

i could choose my subjects
but i can't choose my class
so stick with it .

i'm trying
i was trying
i tried so hard .
i got pangseh-ed , arrowed , insulted , shouted at , spouted vulgarities at

what the F
i am not your punching bag
if you're feeling stress in class .
so am I

so shut the F up and mug on your homework
stop scolding vulgarities at me .
this is not the first time or first day
like seriously

shouting vulgarities , especially F at me ,
isn't cool , isn't interesting , isn't nice .
don't go beyond the line .
people have limits .

you're trying to cross the line .
you try to irritate me every single day .
its either you , or its the others
gosh what on earth is wrong

does irritating / insulting me make you feel so good ?
seriously
although i know you won't see this
but damn you
F you seriously

what on earth is wrong with you ?
did your parents didn't teach you well or something ?
damn you .
screw you .
do you feel so appeased scolding vulgarities ?
chains of them ?

furthermore , it wasn't a happy situation
i carried a sad face to everywhere i went to .
OBVIOUSLY ,
i'm sad .
i'm going into depression

so why the fcuk did you have to scold so much vulgarities at me ,
and act as if it was so cool ?
and explain that it was in your lingo ?

there isn't any right that says that you can scold so much bullshit at me .
but i believe in human rights
i believe in rules .
i believe in teachings .
i may be some sort of a easily-bullied person .

but think twice .
you'll can expect a dominant volcano to burst out lava anytime .
but a dormant one won't .
its a sudden explosion .

before
i
go
crazy
and start wacking you .

stop
all these shit

i wonder why do i have to take all these .
i've done nothing wrong
i've done nothing against my consience .

i didn't do anything to you .
why did you people have to do this to me .

i'm never going to accept you as a friend .
i'm not going to even add you on facebook .
your voice irritates me like some high pitched note .
your face makes me want to puke .
your nerdy loserish behaviour makes me feel uncomfortable .

i wonder why did you have to do this to me .
i wonder why .
i ponder
i think all day

and perhaps the reason is
you are too bored and you need some entertainment
you need someone to bully
you need someone to make fun of
you need someone to be thought to be "under'' you so that you'll be glad .

you have no morals man .
you are inhumane .
how could you treat a human this way
what the F is wrong with you ?

although i know that you probably wouldn't be reading this
but i feel glad .
glad that i recorded your sins somewhere .

i'm glad
i hope karma is true .
i hope that you'll be punished
i hope that you'll go to hell

an eye for an eye
you shall pay , the price .

Guitar grabbing day

2011-03-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

hey peeps .
lol i look odd in this picture .
anyway i am finally smiling in one picture
so be glad
yay
lol

today
similarly
wasn't a nice day .
was talking to the floor .
staring at the sky .
looking at my undeniably crazy chemistry notes .

holy
goodness
my finger hurts
i went to get my guitar from maestro today
the guy was damn nice indeed .
unlike the service staff in yamaha , plaza singapura .
i'm so disappointed .

anyway , talking about the good stuff .
the guy was very nice .
serious , you guys should go try guitars or something ,
so , warm and friendly lol .

i still have a sad life in class .
sigh
how , disheartening
anyway today's pe was crazy
but i was glad .
i can run 3min50sec for the final 800m run . [ 2 rounds ]
:D , LOL AFTER THOSE CRAZY SHEAT , I CAN RUN SO FAST
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH
OWNED ALL OF YOU LOSERS .
ok sorry that sounded too , show off .
lol :D YAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY .
yeah

talking about mugging
i am slacking these few days
and i'm proud of pon-ning school .
cause i was not feeling well
yay

my parent's letter worked somehow i believe
anyway i was quite sick . :/
sigh everyone ignores me .
what is the meaning of staying in school
to get your a level cert.

:(

i shouldn't complain
but this is my blog
so
who cares
i'm going to complain the sheat out of this
hahahahahah
i'm still that loner .
: D

life rocks
i'm going to sleeeeeeeeeeep the hell out of this crap

anyway going to a few days back .

when i was too bored in the library after the kevin's birthday celebration on tuesday or the Jboy gang celebration .
yeah
that is econs tutorial 1 question 3
it sucks
lol i didn't do part b , it was too crazy :)
do i sound like a nerd
yes , absolutely

lol , i am really turning into a nerd .

the logo .

on the pe pants , lol it wasn't that nice on the pants , can't really see well .

sorry for the upside down one lol .

i don't bother changing it . heheh .

it isn't as nice as it looks .

it isn't as nice as you think it would be .

yeah

yeah this aws during the same library session

it was indeed , boring .

bored to the extent of taking random photos .

yay new wallet bought when at orchard with hans :) .

its cheap . yay lol . and the new pen i bought . and my scribbles for my answer .

oh sigh

i wonder why the picture is always down there

i can't move it up damn
ok i almost can't end this blog post .
i don't know what's wrong with my sister's laptop's touchpad
it is like spoilt damn it
i hope life gets better

i hope she will reply .
i hope
i wish
i ponder
i wonder

but usually
things doesn't go the way i want it to be
but i won't be disheartened i hope

i believe .
that
you
will
.

you
will
.

anyway i got a new texting mate
hurray !
like finally after 10 billion years i would have one
but then ,
unfortunately
the person had camp .
so
i shall talk to the wall again
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

things will get better
i've been waiting for so long .
i hope this wait wouldn't be futile .
cause ,
it wouldn't .

:)
i wish everything could be as innocent as before ,
although it wouldn't happen
i'm such a pessimist
sigh

anyway
i gotta sleep
you guys better read up more
about the sad life
of this guy
called
gaoxian

have fun
as i await the next day of crap
:)
good night peeps , sleep well , sweet dreams .
signing off ,
gaoxian

P.S : thanks uh zuhao , for your continued support :)

things that shouldn't involve the public

2011-02-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

hey everyone
this is me , blogging once again .
lol
anyway ,
today was another nice day .
went back to teach 1t1 music lessons again , and also to attend band .

was rather emotional in band today .
had some dumb stomachache , made me feel so bad .

i'm sad .
i can't explain why .
its a mixture of many things .

being sad doesn't solve anything ,
but i can't help it but to be sad .
who doesn't want to be happy .
i am always happy .
i put on a happy front .
you don't really get to see my sad side that often .

publicity , may not be the best solution
anyway ,

i hope to give a sincere apology to everyone
who thinks that my emotional facebook posts or blog posts offending ,
affecting your life , affecting your appetite , affecting your whatever .
in any way .
i'm real sorry i didn't mean it ,
there is always a red cross there for you to click it .
i'm sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
this is dead personal .

i keep these things deep inside .
i don't really like to let people judge wtf am i doing .
i know it's stupid .
but anyway its not only the liking loving nonsense .
its about many other factors too .
things aren't that simple as you see .
you're only seeing the tip of the iceberg .

there's a whole load more .
ah it's okay if you don't understand
it's okay if you don't know
it's okay .
because , you aren't me .
you don't know me .
you don't understand me.
you don't realise how much crap this is .

i'm no loser , who gets sad forever over just loving/liking shit .
it's not only that .
i'm not going to make anything else public .
then it's going to make things even worse .
facebook is a real scary tool .

you can get attacked any single moment ,
thanks to your posts .
people will judge how , and what you post .
ah

never mind it's okay .
life goes on and the earth continues rotating .
time doesn't stop and she won't like you .

sigh .
i'm trying to make myself happy .
but now it just seems so hard .
i wonder why am i like that .
i hope i don't get depression .
anyway , i'm still quite optimistic .

cause i know i'll continue waiting .
waiting at that room .
waiting at that seat .
waiting .

hahahahahahhahahahaha , i'm crazy .
i can't wait 24/7 , cause the room has to close . the school has to close .
lol .
damn

fight these homework .
sheat you homework .
sheat you .

i'm going to play basketball with the gang tomorrow ,
yay .
wee .
finally .
lol relieved .
lets hope i can own .
lol , doesn't really happen .

celebrating kevin's birthday at the same time .
anyway happy birthday kevin .
hope you had a nice seventeen .
magazine name lol .

anyway .
good night . sleep well .
bye peeps .
stay tuned .
pon school 2 days omg i'm gonna face the music on wednesday
anyway bye .
signing off ,
Gaoxian

NICE DAY

2011-02-28T00:28:00.000+08:00

looking at what i've drawn . you probably know what's wrong with me .

anyway , wow blogger has some new different typing kind of thing lol .

anyway , hi guys .

welcome back to the emotional world of mine .

yesterday , i was supposed to meet hans in the wee hours of the day ,

just to get to the school early enough to get onto the bus ,

to lead us to the exchange with bedok green sec. concert band .

i heard from my juniors that they saw deyi and guangyang sec too .

lol mrs chee .

ANYWAY , LOL I WAS LATE . LIKE BY 4 hours :/ , when i woke up .

so sorry .

i couldn't make it on time .

actually it's my loss .

i lost the time to stare just a while more at her .

gosh i'm a pervert .

anyway i wanted to see how did the band fare .

surprisingly , i'm not that worried yet .

:) , they should fare well .

i'm like some observer ,

not anymore involved in the band .

feel so , not really sad but left out . hahahaha no choice .

then i met them when they were back in school .

i wonder if they were surprised to see me there :) ,

anyway , then i went to eat out with hans and jia ni ,

^^ Riverside Indonesian bbq , at kopitiam is damnn nice .

i tried the sotong one .

i love sotong , octopus and stuff ,

they have the rubbery feel and taste ^^ .

then we went off to sing songs at the bottom of kevin's block .

:) , then i went off to mug at the library . how interesting

i'm tired .

i'm sick and tired .

oh yeah , then today .

was slightly late for the appointment with eemin .

if you guys just didn't know who eemin is ,

she's my orientation group mate in acjc .

however , unfortunately , she was later than me :)

so i waited in the library , till she finally reached .

yay .

went to drink some watermelon juice at feast .

anyway , it's nice .

better than the school's one .

went off to the library .

today , jurong point's library was so crowded .

flooded with teens and adults , gosh .

we couldn't really find any seats , chairs or tables ,

so we just sat near the staircase .

then soon , nizam came .

:/ , then we started mugging .

anyway we kept talking and using the computer ,

so it wasn't really that productive .

then we went to eat burger king ^^ .

oh yeah , the bk chick&crisp burger was awesome .

but the patty was just too small .

then , we went to harris and popular to get their diaries .

P.S: they got the exact same diary lol .

:) first time there , harris is quite a nice place .

then nizam went back home , while eemin and I went back to the library .

slacked there , did a little bit of economics .

then went back home :D .

life's getting so interesting .

homework homework homework .

mug mug mug

library library library

notes notes notes

graphic calc. graphic calc. graphic calc.

graphs graphs graphs

girls girls girls

food food food

chapel chapel chapel

this is a test of whether do you sense the sacarsm in it , or not .

besides this ,

i think i got into guitar ensemble .

i got into syf .

then i didn't get in .

i don't know why but

whatever

it's not that important anyway , since i'm not a professional .

while many people prefer their diaries .

i prefer my blog .

it's a long tradition to blog .

i love blogging .

it shows my introverted side .

usually

i'm lagging behind in economics ,

i'm losing my brain juice in math ,

i'm confused in physics .

: / , is it really that screwed up for my first term in jc life .

no doubt my classmates are smart .

i'm sorry , they are damn smart and hardworking .

i feel inferior at times .

:) , it's not the background that matters though .

it's getting very negative nowadays .

i can't seem to find the joy being in class .

with all the ,

hey , that's o level e maths leh .

you don't understand ? *are you a retard* look

*ASKS QUESTION* - classmates turn back * are you a retard* look

ah , i anyhow do my geog paper also can get A1 !

HOLY .

COW .

i'm not used to this .

i'm also not used to having

frangers .

friends-strangers

i'll explain .

for a period of time , i'll be your friend .

and after that period of time , i'll slowly drift away from you ,

then we'll be strangers .

: / , it's okay .

it's my first time .

I'm like some innocent nerd in class .

i don't know .

og and class feels so different .

i still can vaguely recall a few days ago ,

when we went to watch 127 hours , at orchard .

and i was laughing at the amputation part like some pervert gosh ,

i thought i was scared of it .

anyway

people keep telling me ,

life will get better .

yeah , why will it get better .

cause you've already adapted to this shit .

sometimes i wish i could remain as innocent , as carefree as i was before .

it was just studying , mugging . if you wanted to ,

improving , improving and improving .

despite all the scoldings , being late and whatever ,

i still , had best friends .

i didn't lose them .

i didn't

i wouldn't

its odd ,

real weird .

for me to adapt

to become heartless .

you treat your friends as temporary objects ,

using them whenever required .

is this the realistic world ?

the real world ?

as you grow up ,

you start to see this world .

this .

realistic ,

world .

:,) ,

if i was younger .

anyway , i have to face it someday .

so why not .

maybe ,

we were born-ed to become heartless creatures .

i don't want to lose my heart .

i don't want to lose my friends .

i don't want to make some , lose some .

i know i'm stubborn .

but , i know what i'm doing .

i'm going against the flow .

i don't talk about soccer , basketball , tennis whatever

i don't talk about D.O.T.A , maplestory or whatever

i don't talk about homework , tutorials , lectures , gossip about people or whatever

i'm not a nerd .

i don't have my center-parting hair anymore .

i lack the nerdiness in me .

if , you think that because you're smart

you look down on me .

its okay .

because , i know , what you're doing is wrong .

i'm a victim .

i'm a bloody victim here .

:) , i believe in karma .

you'll get your retribution .

i'm sounding a little sick here , sorry .

i didn't know .

if i can't find a single soul in my class to be my friend ,

i'm going to go the lonely road .

i'm going to walk down , this boulevard , quietly

thinking about it ,

I may be lonely in class ,

but i have other nice friends elsewhere .

elsewhere .

:) , maybe it wouldn't be that bad .

maybe it would be nice to shut up for the whole day .

it's pointless trying to be nice anymore .

it's really , pointless .

i tried very hard .

MORNING PEOPLE MORNING GOOD MORNING ,

epic fail .

:D ,

showing-off , looking down

i don't mind , i'm still trying to be nice .

but this goes on every single day .

what the **** .

:) ,

if i would have known , i wonder whether will i be in the same situation

i'm going to compete .

o levels was shit .

maths is shit-er

a levels is kanasai .

lol

its a different realm ,

when i was in my "neighbourhood" realm

and the "clever , high-class" realm .

it just feels so different .

no wonder why yanglaoshi says diff feel teaching jvs and hwachong

i'll prefer to stay in my neighbourhood realm

mug mug mug .

life is always so exciting , full of perks

i saw ling hao and cheryl in the library today , ^^

so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

gosh am i getting jealous .

anyway , they seem quite compatible .

lol , i've got nothing much to say .

i just hope that

people reply my messages .

people treat me nicer .

stop looking down on me , everyone's a raw 8 pointer dude .

i don't really ask for anything much

i don't ask for any friends in my class .

i don't ask for anything more than that .

i can't

i know it won't work out this way ,

but anyway just accept the fact .

things just doesn't work the way you want it to be .

i'm seventeen .

sort of

and

my mom keeps nagging about , ah ya chan le , later no girlfriend .

goodness

anyway , i'll be glad if i would survive through this ordeal .

it's not torturous .

it's just me .

its hard for me to be lonely .

sitting down at that corner

talking to myself , crying .

talking about homework , tutorials , lectures .

plan

wednesday

stares blankly at whiteboard

don't say hi

don't say morning

don't say anything

just

pure

silence

i doubt i can do that .

who knows whether i'm gonna enjoy that .

my presence or absence probably wouldn't' make a difference .

no one's going to notice that .

i sound as if I'm complaining about my life .

i'm not .

I'm just trying to give my personal views about what's happening now .

if you think that i'm just some weak loser , then i have no choice

but to ignore that .

i'm not complaining , please don't misunderstand me

i won't give up .

days , may just get better .

i , although super unlucky .

got caught for hair even when its short ,

and somemore is due to chinese rep. duties .

and whatever

i won't be that unlucky ,

all the time through this two years i hope .

I'm so ,

heartbroken .

ok i'm speechless .

lets talk about life another day .

i have to meet hans early in the morning tml , to go to school to teach music once again ^^ .

anyway , good night peeps , its not early .

bye .

signing off ,

Gaoxian

Tips

2010-12-23T19:51:00.002+08:00

Hi ,
i feel sick .
actually i am sick .
okay whatever .

talking about tips .
what did i actually do ?
actually , i didn't really start chionging really badly ,
before 80+ days of O level . [ by the school board thing ]
start of july .

but actually ,
from the start of 2010 .
i was trying my best to catch up and understand a.maths :D
my e.maths was originally okay , it's rather simple once you do a question on a certain topic .

Additional mathematics

it's a simple and easy to master subject , if you do it the right way .

1 . THE TEXTBOOK .

easy peasy chapters like simultaneous eqns .
just skip , and do miscellaneous ex 1 .
that's the best of it . [ don't bother doing all , like not worth it , if you don't have the time to do it ]

as for the rest from chpt 2- what you have learnt .
UNSURE = TEACHER/FRIEND/ ME [ if i do remember ]
just try the exercises , eg: 2.1 , 2.2 and also misc.
if you are super unsure , do the whole chapter .

E.G : i sucked at logarithms for a moment .
then i went to do , and do and do .
such as , indices to log . log to indices .
do all questions in that chapter , don't know ask teacher/ kevin . [ FRIEND , get it ? ]

YES !
try to listen attentively in class though during sec 4 .
[ although i admit i wasn't 100% attentive ]

i slept through sec 3 though .
as for when o levels are reaching .
your teacher will bomb you with full of worksheets and blah blah past year papers ,
other school prelim papers .
try to do them all [ i did a few only 0.0 ]
yeah .

if you work hard enough , keeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep doing the tys everyday .
the tys[ten year series ] actually could be done within 2 weeks or lesser . [ like me , i did it in 10-11 days ]
yes , chiong like a pig .

e. MATHS .
it's simple logic .
perhaps not including trigo though .
same logic .
practice , practice , practice .

it's useless lugging a huge file around , with all your stuff ,
making everyone think you're hardworking or whatever .
after you practiced , the paper , checked the answers , for me
i'll recommend you dump it .
or just put it aside .
save your shoulders from some weight eh .
like what i've said ,
you have too many crap to finish , no time to do it again [ pointless also ]

as for e.maths tys , i didn't really finish everything .
but i finished what i did not really understand or smth .
IF , YOU THINK YOU ARE AN EXPERT IN E. MATHS . [ elementary mathematics ]
but yet , you still get loser grades , [e.g : B4-F9 ]
do something about it .

flip through your past papers ,
or wait for a "big" exam , not including class tests .
then see what kind of questions you get wrong .
e.g : trigonometry ? number patterns ? probability ?
do take note that it includes Sec 1 &2&3&4 stuff .
so , do tys or practice on some books from popular , worth the investment !

find out the problem , and then SOLVE the problem .
you'll see instant results .
it's not careless , it's your problem , with the certain topic/chapter .

practice hard enough and your e.math results would improve .

BIOLOGY [ pure ]

SKIP chapter 1 .
trust me , it's all bullshit .
if you don't believe me , do flip through your ten year series and see whether anything similar came out before [ linked to chapter 1 ]

it's not all memory work .
it's about memorising the right stuff and understanding many things .
how did i memorise almost the whole textbook of important stuff ?
1) make use of every second of your life when you're sec 4 .
BY ?

1) Memorising and reading to understand the things in the chapter when you are doing something which could be easily multi-tasked .
e.g : when you're eating , have a bite , or a few more , and memorise 1 point . E.G : SER , smooth endoplasmic reticulum , carries out detoxification !

DO cut down on wastage time .
wastage time - travelling time [ in car / bus / MRT / walking ] , recess time [ you don't need 1/2 hour to eat , i'm super slow , yet i take 20minutes ] , slack time [ talking to friends , going out to shop , going on clique outings blah blah blah . just stop most of your activities and focus , concentrate and study .

but one point to take note .
do not kill yourself by studying without sleeping , or sleeping for lesser than 8 hours continuously .
You'll lose out in the ultimate end .
i've seen many cases in my class lol .
you'll end up sleeping in class [ like when i was in sec 3 ]
or , too little attention span
or , don't feel like studying anymore .
it's adviced to not chiong when you're supposed to sleep .
UNLESS , It's necessary .
E.G : during O's and you haven't finish studying for the paper tml =/ .
but it's risky ,
cause i ruined my geog thanks to this lol .
i woke up too late and missed 4 hours of my studying time , sigh .

yeah .
i'll go on with biology and other subjects next time .

ON A FINAL NOTE ,
do take note that i'm going malaysia from tomorrow[ 24dec2010] to sunday , 26dec2010 .
so don't bother smsing/ mms / call my phone .
so , an advanced merry christmas from me guys , and don't bother smsing me
chain messages for christmas .
do have fun , and
it's 18 more days , to do the moment of truth .
do play hard , and study hard later .

good night , i'm off to MY ! MY HERE I COME . wow i copied someone's line okay whatever .
bye !
signing off ,
- GAOXIAN , :O)

Dreams , hope ?

2010-12-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

Martin & co . J-40 .
sigh .
i think it will always remain as a dream .

down in luck nowadays .
actually ,
i am already happy , satisfied , delighted to hear that ,
i can be your friend once again .
thanks for giving me that chance .
i don't know what to say but ,
that seems to be the happiest thing which occured to me after o's .

i crashed hard once .
but after much thought .
i'll try again .
please don't take away that hope .
it could always stay as a dream .
we could always be together , just like a dream .

she seems irritated/frustrated by my messages .
Am i really that boring/bad ?
i hope that's not the case .
i'll try again ,
and i won't give up without a good fight .
sigh .

ok change topic .
talking about JOBS .

i had a bad experience for this 2 weeks .
i worked almost everyday , overtime .
7-7 ,
as in ,
7am to 7pm .
i can't bask in the sun anymore .
i can't see the light anymore .
i didn't expect myself to be always living in the dark .
i didn't expect myself to be in such a situation .
i didn't expect such , cruelty .

perhaps ,
i asked for it .
i was too greedy .
greedy for that extra 50cents per hour .
didn't try a rather okay job .
went for my operator/packer/general worker job at amteck [HP stuff you know ?]
wow .

what i wrote on top sounds nice right ,
it's all a lie .
i'm a factory worker , to be honest .
i work my life away . i toil hard .
i work 12 hours , sleep less than 8 hours , get sick .
and i continue to work .
work , work and work .

i can't quit , i have to pay $500 .
i have to leave soon .
you may just think because i think it's tough .
but don't ever read a book by it's cover .

i'm not leaving because i can't "chi ku"
or taste the bitterness of working [ in english ] .

Problem No. 1 ,
it was originally ,
7am-3pm , overtime is compulsory , monday to friday .

it ended up to be ,
monday - sunday ,
usually 7am-7pm .
no rest , no complains , no paid leave = most of the time rejected .

2.
i can't have leave .
i missed my damn piano lesson
i worked through out
why
why
why
i keep asking myself the question , why ?
because i am being ordered to .
because there are orders .
because i am a slave of their company .
because i am being tied down to a contract .
because i am foolish , naive and stupid .

sigh .
all shall end soon .

3.
today ,
my superior didn't came .
i regretted not complaining yesterday , just like wee loon .
then i went to talk to the other supervisors .
wow .
guess what .

they responded badly .
i was polite .
i was nice .
i didn't complain .
i didn't quarrel .
i didn't spout out any vulgarity .
i didn't do anything wrong .
i didn't insult , i didn't scold anyone anything .

GUESS WHAT ?

all i wanted ,
for all the things i wanted , i only needed something .
a way to contact my supervisor , to tell/beg her to call my agent and rescue me from this .. sigh ,
before i get trapped and i can't go for my holiday .

that's all i wanted .
i believe it's reasonable for a worker , to NOT get his/her superior's number .
but , is it unreasonable to contact his/her superior if there's a big problem about leave and OT ?
is that , a small problem to you ?
what if i get trapped here ?

you don't understand me at all , you don't know me at all .
please do not stereotype me as some standard 21st century kiddo .
i'm abnormal .
i do not stare at the comp everyday , playing games now .
i do not slack everyday , like some pig .
i , can take your torture , toil even harder than you do .

who are you to judge me ,
and tell me to get back home and face the computer screen and play computer games ?
who are you to advice me that ,
i'm not suitable for part-time jobs ?
WHO are you to despise me ?

they told me loads of crap and bullshit .
saying that how am i going to work next time ,
how can i keep taking leave [ do take note i just wanted to take leave for 3 days for holiday ]
he pushed it to a high level ,
saying i require to take all the leave possible every year when i go out to work next time ,
e.g: no pay leave , annual leave , hospitalised leave , MATERNAL LEAVE ? [ WTF MAN ]

he says that i'm inexperienced .
i'm just some kiddo .
but even if i'm just some kiddo ,
i believe there's human rights in singapore ? 0.0
is it wrong to take leave , because of a planned holiday since so damn long before ?
even the agent understood my situation ,
why can't you ?

i wonder how long more can i tolerate this crap .
all these slavery .
oh yeah .
he did mention something else too .
he said that what about the other workers here ?
they also work the same what .
BUT , please don't ever forget your facts dude ,
they are permanent workers ,
they get to choose whether they want to do overtime or not ,
we don't .
we sell our lives to you .
we becomes slaves , coolies .
they need to feed their family's stomachs from far away , such as china , india or malaysia .

I don't need .
i really have to emphasize this .
I work , to kill time .
not
to KILL MYSELF / SUICIDE .

sigh .
i'm sick and tired of this .
i'm sick and tired of quarreling .
i'm sick and tired of working 12 hours everyday continuously .
i'm sick and tired of being scolded everyday like some dog .
i'm sick and tired of getting wood chips in my fingers .
i'm sick and tired of cutting my thumb accidentaly .
i'm sick and tired of bleeding .
i'm sick and tired of getting worsened eyesight due to laser beams & bright light & facing computer screens for 12hours everyday .
i'm sick and tired of all this .

what's the point of all this .
i don't give a damn about the money .
i just don't want to do all the work .
and get almost no reward at all , [ after minusing the penalty $500 ]

am i in a sweatshop .
am i trapped in this crap .
tricked into working into this ,
learnt a good lesson .
had a taste of office politics .
had a taste of unfairness .
had a taste of unreasonable people .
had a taste of slavery .

this is life ?
i wouldn't submit myself to this crap anymore .
i'll run away .
escape from this slavery
it's jailbreak .

i feel sad .
demoralised .
restless .
listless .
lost .
angry .
frustrated .
disappointed .

i don't want to be despised .
i know i'm ugly .
i know i'm stupid .
i know i'm blur .
i know i can't make it there .
i know i suck .
but ,
can you believe that
even both of your own parents and your sister .
despises you
because
you are in
jurongville secondary ?

i never said this out before .
i'm letting all these out .
went for a wedding today .
my dad publicly despised me .
by comparing me and my cousin [hua yi sec . ]
he took double science .
i took triple .

he compared by saying
oh , no wonder
cause good school mah , not like my son . [ gives LOL FACE ]
obviously i know what you're trying to say .
nothing could please my family , or relatives .
nothing .
i am the dumbest of them all with my psle score of 223 .
my face is on the floor .
they step on it whenever they see me .
sigh .

it's eternal regret .
223 , could make it to hua yi if i had appealled .
instead , i didn't know how to .
my dad didn't bother by saying " aiya go into this school then go lah , nvm one lah aiya waste my time "
mom - " HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHH ? WTF NO TIME NO TIME i also don't know how to appeal "
sis - " i really want to help but i no time leh , you do this that this that this that , then can liao lor !"

i was primary 6 then .
4 years ago .
it was a nightmare
on the day of the posting results
the book lied to me .
it wrote 221 for huayi last year cop .
i got 223 .
still can't
224 then can auto in .
what the f
what the ?

i actually tolerated all these for 4 years already .
thanks to my ex-school's good reputation .
my family , relatives , ex-friends all despise me .
the public ?

REACTION NO. 1 ,
OH MY HOLY GOODNESS ,
GREEN UNIFORM !!!!
ah girl ah boy ah , don't go that school ah , all ahbeng ahlian , paikia one !
WHAT THE .
DO i look like an ah beng to you ?
you judge me by my green uniform ?
or perhaps that leaf on my school uniform?

what the .
i asked around
many had similar cases .

my dad didn't believe me .
he didn't had trust in me .
he didn't had faith in me .
i was there .
i was there rotting
i was there crying .
i was there , helpless .
ended up in this misery for 4 years .
my dad didnt believe in his own son .
he believed in my cousin [ xinmin sec . ]
he believed in him
he had faith in him ,
he thought he was his son .

i'm some bastard , picked up from some dustbin ?
i'm some dumbass , retard which do not have a chance to live ?
why can't you just have some faith in me .
why , why why .

i miss my primary school days .
i had the faith .
i lost the faith since sec 1 .
i lost all of it .
what i gained was just
pure disappointment .

guess what .
i never got praised before , NEVER , NOT EVEN ONCE .
when i was in secondary school .
i agree i'm dumb
i didn't get well enough or was clever enough to do a transfer to other schools or smth like that .
even when i reached my current peak
at prelims .
no one looked up at me .
everyone was still looking down at me .
guess what ?
biology , chemistry , chinese , elementary mathematics , additional mathematics - A1
Physics - A2
English -B3
Combined Humanities[Geography , Social Studies ] - B4

L1R4 - 7 , L1R5-11 .
CCA- A1

still
pure
disappointment

when i said my results to him in front of all my relatives at a barbeque .
guess what he said
no lah , anyhow one lah !
he stupid one lah !
never work hard also like that one lah !
confirm the paper very easy thats why like that one lah ! , he so stupid where can get so good results ?

:D my life's great .

another thing .
i'm happy we're friends
i've waited for 50+ hours for your reply .
i really hope we don't end here again .
i really miss you saying bye to me .

sigh .
this sucks .
i hope this hope isn't destroyed .
cause you're the only hope .
you're the only one .
i hope you're miss right .
sigh . but we could never be together , since you hate me so much :D .

life rocks .
viva la vida , live the life !
it's getting real late , i'm alone in the hall .
i'm watching boring tv shows .
ok good night people .
the things in the previous blogpost , will be done soon .
things will should get well , and it well get well soon .

Do take note of Lissie's cover of bad romance , wow nice . yeah ,
good night people , sweet dreams :D
signing off ,

-Gaoxian

STAY TUNED

2010-11-20T01:01:00.002+08:00

hey ,
will be back blogging soon i think ,
but might not be able to do so since i'm getting a job soon .
but , some previews of what i'm going to blog soon .

1) brief walkthrough of my P.SCH & S.SCH life :D ,

2)what did i do before , during and after O's .

3) TIPS FOR O'S

4) thanks to certian people throughout this tough period of time .

OKAY , that's all folks .
BYE BYE !

- Gao xian

Intresting

2010-05-03T20:20:00.004+08:00

i find my juniors very intresting ,

or maybe it's the process of understanding someone further .

so , magical .

e.g : zuhao's getting funnier , lol .

hazel takes nice pictures , serious !

[she looks real nice in it btw ]

but don't get funny ideas over this .

i got nice classmates such as pacy ! [and others too]

LOL , RANDOM RIGHT PACIFIER .

if you're reading this post , please be thankful that i praised you .

HOHOHOHO

ok some recent stuff ,

ok i know i look nerd .

and indeed messy .

i'm going to be a geek .

i hope .

i pray .

because i don't want to get an F9 .

ok i'm being too extreme .

ok whatever .

i've long forgotten the past ,

and i'm so worried for the sophisticated future .

i feel stressed out at times ,

especially when ,

you don't make the mark .

firstly , how am i gonna settle my biology paper .

i have completely no idea .

other subjects also omg .

except maths and a maths i think .

but sometimes when i think back about it ,

what happened in the past and present doesn't matter ,

what really matters is what's gonna happen in the future . :D

after all ,

i believe i can do it ,

i'm thankful if anyone could help ! :D LOL .

Now's the time to soar ,

time to fly ,

time to win .

thats all ,

have a nice day and ,

bye !

It's over

2010-04-13T21:10:00.003+08:00

it's over .

so stop dredging over this .

stop reminding me ,

so my mind won't be in such a jeopardy .

sometimes , i don't want to be reminded ,

sometimes , i just want to forget .

sometimes , i can't forget .

so could you be a kind soul and stop ''gossiping'' or whatever about it ?

ah , whatever .

i'm getting used to it already .

sometimes i want to know who the other guy is ,

sometimes i really want to know .

i think i better heed joanne's advice .

sometimes i wonder what's wrong with me .

i really don't know .

chinese ''o'' levels are coming in 47 days .

i wonder if my A1 dream would come true .

but i keep dreaming .

to the extent that i dream too much .

sigh .

sometimes things just doesn't go your way ,

and sometimes you just have to accept the fact that ,

life goes on .

today's biology spa was okay .

rather easy , managable .

first time i felt so confident lol .

i didn't do my chinese hwk , didn't have sufficient time .

tml i'm doomed ,

and the maths test .

pray it's gonna be easy 0.0 ,

i feel quite disatisfied over the outcome .

lol , sounds funny right .

okay , in a nutshell ,

stop reminding me of that

and i'm in the mood to irritate you though ,

lol , okay have a nice day

and ,

bye .

Competitiveness

2010-04-06T19:23:00.002+08:00

First thing about today is ,

i studied so damn hard for the friggin biology test ,

on DNA and stuff .

and then i got a easy mcq question wrong .

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah , life goes on .

second thing ,

e maths mock exam .

was RATHER OKAY .

but i lacked time .

no.1 ,

seriously i don't know who the hell ,

WAS COUNTING

1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , 5 , 6 ,7

and screaming away downstairs .

bloody hell .

whenever they started counting and screaming ,

i can't concentrate ,

then i do slower .

then end up i had to skip circles [ 8 marks ]

or else i can't finish the graph .

AND THOSE PEOPLE AT THE BASKETBALL COURT .

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ,

i'm seriously getting irritated by others .

firstly ,

almost 95% of whoever i survey says ,

either

'SIA LAH ! off standard siol , dead easy ! hahahahaha '

'basics lah , so easy '

'i expected it to be harder though '

firstly ,

overall was rather easy , but i couldn't finish .

and there goes my A .

i doubt i can do it liao ,

almost 20+ marks gone . what the .

i think lah .

secondly ,

in this case , i think our class average mark is gonna be like

85 ? 90 ?

pulled down by me .

wow , if it was 95 i'll faint .

i think i'm gonna get 50 + .

damn .

seirously doomed .

thirdly ,

my chinese teacher expects me to get B4

for o levels .

seriously disappointing .

am i really that bad ?

i'm already trying so damn hard for the

paper one thingy ,

and also paper two .

why can't he see that .

and i'm so called a problematic kid .

what theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

i think i know why .

cause i didn't do well for my recent chinese test ,

GG already ,

i didn't do 3 questions from the comprehension .

costs me 12 marks .

thus i get a score over 38 .

doomed yes .

no wonder why the expectation so low ,

why keep repeating last question must say either

"i agree" or " i don't agree" in the last question for the 1 mark .

zzzz .

is no time , not don't bother writing .

DO I REALLY LOOK PROBLEMATIC .

i find myself seriously a failure .

first thing in the morning ,

wake up damn early everyday .

lack sleep ,

next ?

go to school .

on the way ?

see someone which , ah whatever .

it's seriously so damn coincidental .

next ?

go to school , get tests back .

firstly ,

the person beside me always gets perfect results .

ah , jealous also no use .

next ?

PEOPLE FEEL SHOCKED WHEN I MAKE A

SO CALLED " Intelligent/Knowledgeable" response to the

teacher's question .

LOL ?!!

do i just look stupid or what .

oh wait , i forgot i'm a failure .

i'm struggling to get to the mean of the class in some subjects .

real hard .

and when i get something wrong .

i get commented like ,

i am a clever person then suddenly get wrong .

oh my ,

in addition with ,

[copied from el teacher ]

i go home regularly from school at 6 after all the studying .

then my results still suck .

next reach home ,

feel so friggin depressed ,

then blog to cheer myself up .

THEN ,

my parents will come home and ,

" aiyah , useless lah you , hardworking ? hardworking your head ah "

or ?

"aiyah , you see ****** and ******* , see they so clever , you leh ? shit ah ?"

or ?

"aiyah , use computer every single day and minute of your life , useless lah "

or ?

during weekends ,

"aiyoh , sleep sleep sleep , whole day only know how to sleep ? "

" buy newspaper for you never read , useless lah you waste my money "

WHERE ARE THE PRAISES MAN !?

the only ones i heard this week is most probably

"wow , gaoxian got a 16 ! yeah he's picking himself up now !"

followed by random clapping .

by my english teacher .

ah ,

'i tried so hard ,

and got so far ,

but in the end ,

it doesn't even matter'

by linkin park - in the end

sigh .

i don't want people to look down on me ,

you know ?

i don't mind if you call me nerd if you want ,

but i don't want people to look down on me ,

cause .

you tell me ,

better try hard ah , i believe you can get B4 ONE !

i know i'm no good but ,

ah .

need someone dead good in chinese to tutor me ,

maybe i'll go befriend some clever people in my class ?

i can't do finish the maths paper today ,

i think a maths paper next week gonna be the same ,

i keep telling myself life goes on ,

no matter how depressed i can be ,

it shouldn't affect me much ,

cause , life goes on .

you know ,

when i see that you're being hardworking ,

you get good results ,

i feel hurt .

i have seriously no idea why .

i can't get to my target .

i can't not get to my target eventually .

or else the whole world will be nagging and nagging ,

and ...

i'll be looked down upon even more .

In spite of studying so hard ,

good results just doesn't come .

and my parents just don't see the stressed up state of me ,

i always worry .

i think i'm gonna get nightmares ,

what if i got 54 points for "O's"

then my world will crash into pieces .

i'm already being looked down upon ,

i can't go on this way .

i think i must follow Joanne's advice seriously ,

quit computer .

i think this might be my last post .

i hope that i can say everything i want to say .

i really want good results .

but ,

with my extremely competitive class ,

i think for tests ,

that is generally easy ,

getting full marks is the only thing .

full marks means that you've done well .

99 means you should hate yourself so much .

A1 means you just scraped through ,

C6 means you seriously suck .

Failing means you should seriously go and reflect ,

and think why did you fail ,

whywhywhy , then stress yourself up .

then if you're too stressed then too bad .

my dad always compare me to my 'academically-inclined'

cousins .

i feel hopeless .

i feel small , i feel tiny .

they talk about their schools and chim stuff ,

and mention that their schools suck and stuff .

what can i say about mine man .

firstly it's a neighbourhood school ,

secondly i'm not doing well either .

actually i found out that ,

in our class , actually we are all playing a GAME !

we all compete with each other secretly ,

and is so dead desperate to get the fame and honour of owning the class .

when you do badly ,

you'll get the 'loserish' feeling .

our class once had an a maths test on differenciation ,

i got only 8,

the class average was , 14

over 15 .

lol ,

and hans got 12/13 i think .

he keeps saying that ,

i give him the force to move on , chiong and win .

he insists on his logic that i somewhat insulted him in a way .

'HUH you don't know meh ?'

and that's why he chionged so hard .

then he eventually won me .

what can i say ?

i'm just a 手下败将。

输了就是输了，我输到很凄惨。

then you'll hear my dad saying again ,

'海牙，没有用了你，根好死了算了，对这个世界点贡献都没有，海牙'

seriously , sometimes i feel like dying ,

but i tell myself i can't die .

cause i can't lose .

这个游戏还没有玩完，不可以随意放弃。

no one understands me completely ,

i wonder whether i'm just mad or what .

可能在我的身命力，夸奖我是几乎不可能的事。

我也没设么话好说了，

have a nice day ,

and bye .

Flying High

2010-04-02T21:56:00.003+08:00

Sometimes we soar together ,

and sometimes i hope we'll fall together too .

For today's post ,

it's gonna be a little unusual .

Firstly ,

I'm really very sorry to Lou Zu Hao ,

and other juniors of my section .

I know that i'm not a perfect section leader ,

neither do i think i'm the best / good .

Secondly ,

I'll explain the reasons why am i apologizing in such a manner .

One ,

i'm sorry that i didn't do my job well .

i didn't finish my band "notes and tests" before i graduate .

i'm really sorry for not finishing as of yet .

i'm sorry if you didn't learn anything from me ,

or get anything from me , or talk to me or anything else from me .

i'm sorry that i can't teach you one by one all the time ,

i seriously lack the sectionals . [ which seems to be too short ]

Two ,

i'm sorry that in any manner or any sort of action ,

verbally , intellectually , spiritually , physically

insulted you , scolded you , hit you , laughed at you , smiled at you ,

played too loud , hurt you , made you sad , made you disappointed , made you cry ,

made you feel awkward , make you feel stupid , make you feel bad .

and other negative things .

Three ,

I'm sorry if i had raised my voice ,

felt frustrated over you ,

felt happy over a sad thing to you ,

cried when you were happy ,

maglined you in any way ,

or hurt you in any way .

Four ,

I'm sorry if i was a show-off ,

I'm sorry if i talked too loud ,

I'm sorry if i was noisy , and the noise coming out from my larynx is

irritating your senses in your head .

Five ,

I'm sorry if i ignored you ,

I'm sorry if i didn't be socialble enough and cater towards you ,

I'm very sorry if i ignored all your messages , notes , requests and stuff .

I'm very sorry if i messed up your scores ,

I'm sorry if i lost your scores ,

I'm sorry if i reprimanded you when i was in the wrong ,

I'm sorry if i always think i'm in the right ,

I'm sorry if i made you play the "bad" guy/lass .

Six ,

I'm sorry if i offended you in anyway or so ,

I'm sorry if i was a pest , worst than ghost or monster ,

extreme irritant to you ,

I'm sorry if i made you feel irritated and mad over something which i didn't know ,

I'm sorry if i didn't understand your feelings well enough ,

I'm sorry if i couldn't intepret your mind well enough ,

I'm sorry if i didn't WAIT ,

I'm sorry if i have made you wait for me ,

I'm so sorry as i am perpectually late .

Seven ,

I'm sorry that i couldn't give you enough care and concern ,

I'm sorry if i didn't entertain you ,

I'm sorry if i can't make you happy ,

I'm sorry if i made you angry ,

I'm sorry if i forgot your birthday ,

I'm sorry if i couldn't find time for things during band ,

I'm sorry if i wasted your 'life' time during band ,

I'm sorry if i made you feel miserable ,

I'm sorry if i kept giving you stupid faces ,

I'm sorry if i punished you for no reason .

Eight ,

I'm sorry if i smell bad ,

I'm sorry if i look bad , which could cause vomitting or other mental / emotional problems ,

I'm sorry if i knocked against you ,

I'm sorry if i kicked your instrument ,

I'm sorry if i laughed so loudly at you ,

I'm sorry that i failed as my role as being a section leader .

if i go on saying about other stuff ,

i don't think i should go on ,

i know i'm a "千古罪人"

which means "i'm a fugitive with thousands of mistakes since very long time ago ? "

i'm sorry if i didn't get the meaning right .

hope you somewhat get it .

I admit the fact that i'm not good ,

I can't show you what's a good trumpeter ,

I can't be your role model ,

I can't help you , since i can't help myself either .

I know i wasn't a good trumpeter ,

i got all my rhythms wrong ,

intonation just couldn't make it ,

persistently flat or sharp ,

never in tune .

I can't play complicated songs ,

i don't have good dynamics ,

i don't have the "tone"

i can't vibrato well .

BUT ,

why am i expecting every single one of you to improve ,

work so damn hard ,

try so hard ,

train so hard ,

FOR ?

think over my words ,

firstly , i'm in no position to scold you ,

being a section leader is no big deal .

i know i'm bad ,

but since i'm bad , why can i teach you / lead you ?

i have completely no idea .

i am a problematic and messy kid ,

you see me scratching my head everyday ,

it's not itchy , neither because i didn't bathe or whatever .

when i feel stressed , i feel shy , i feel awkward ,

or i just feel bored .

just rubbing the head could make me feel better .

thats somewhat how i gain confidence ,

i'm sorry if it's odd , but i don't scratch , i just rub/carass past the hair ,

not the scalp .

and i bathe twice a day or more, if i can .

so i'm not dirty ,

i seem messy i know .

Now , the main point of today's post ,

to Zu Hao ,

i know i'm no good , i know that i'm bad .

i wrote those comments ,

when i was sec 2/3 or smth .

dead long ago ,

then i just took the paper and stuck it on the book ,

was too lazy to change the comments .

yes i'm sorry if you felt offended in anyway .

i'm sorry for making fun of you and fongyin ,

or other girls which i'm trying to make fun of with you ,

i'm really very sorry .

i thought you didn't mind .

this was a misinterpretation on my part ,

i'm really sorry .

i'm sorry for not showing you whats a good sl ,

what's a good person in life , what's a good trumpeter ,

i know i won't go anywhere ,

i won't join Tokio Kosei Band or whatever

[sorry for the wrong spelling ]

I'm sorry for bullying you or making fun of you ,

since sec 1 .

I know i'm in the wrong .

I'm sorry to fongyin too ,

if you felt bad/awkward , whenever i mentioned you and zuhao .

I'm a failure ,

i can't bring all of you to higher heights .

i can't soar , i can't bring you all to fly with me .

real sorry for bringing all the misery , all the pain , all the shame , all the torture ,

of having me in the section .

firstly ,

it's no point when people think you like someone ,

so what , it's OTHER people .

i'm sorry for spreading the rumours though .

if you feel uncomfortable .

i don't mean that you're saying all these things below to ME ,

i don't think that i can't face my own shortcomings ,

firstly i admit i'm not good ,

but after i admit i'm not good ,

you must think ,

if i'm not good , so what ?

so you should all the more be better than me ,

and if you are better than me , then i have nothing else more to say ,

if not ,

i hope you'll do your best next year in syf & "N" levels .

i don't look good ,

and i don't look good at the expense of others

when i laugh at something , some people may laugh because i look stupid when i laugh ,

and i don't sacrifice anyone ,

i don't kill , i don't harm , i have done nothing severely wrong in my life .

& I'M PROUD OF THAT . :D

i trust you , i trust almost everyone in band ,

i left my wallet on the stand before , handphone too .

it didn't went missing ,

even though there was some money inside [ of course ]

i trust you and fongyin , that's why you both are sl's .

i trust other members in the section that they will do their best for syf .

i trust everyone in band ,

because i believe that we are as one ,

One band , One sound , One spirit .

even though no one mentions it ,

i still remember .

i'm not critical of others ,

i don't mind what you say ,

it always appears to people that i care a lot ,

but sometimes i really don't care ,

about the terrence thing ,

i was just merely explaining what was happening ,

and i mentioned ' this is stupid , that's stupid too '

which means that i wouln't do all that ,

and i'm not sad because of these sort of minor/minute stuff .

i don't hide ulterior motives for self gain ,

think ,

what can i gain from you/section/band ?

cca points ? cip hours ? just to get a cca ?

money ? love ? friendship ?

let me be practical here ,

if you joined band ,

you'll be involved in a lot of activities ,

and if your attendance is good ,

your end result would most probably be

a A1/2 grade for cca .

whereby it will -2 points for "O" levels .

money ?

if you think i can get any ,

by stealing ? robbing ?

and i don't need to steal or rob ,

i have enough and sufficient for myself .

cip hours ?

yeah somewhat , every cca has lots of things to

give you lots of cip hours .

so ?

love ?

friendship ?

or just passion .

you think over what's my ulterior motive then .

don't need to say sorry and please ,

don't ever put words into my mouth .

firstly , i didn't said this

"DUN EVER EVER TOUCH THIS SHELF AGN I TELL YOU,
I MAKE BACK PROPERLY ALREADY YOU DUN MESS IT UP"

i said ,

" DON'T EVER MESS IT UP HOR , I MAKE BACK PROPERLY ALREADY ,

THANKS A LOT ."

don't try to exaggerate things yeah .

i don't get what is

'i out on top of the shelf'

by the way , if i said that i'm sorry but i don't think i said that .

and i have no idea why , the scores we have now suddenly so many lost .

after they changed the system of keeping the scores , quite a lot scores gone .

I had to be careful ,

just in case another piece /set of scores get missing .

about the big and small sl thing ,

it was just a joke , i didn't know you will take it seriously ,

so , i'm sorry to , but if you took it into heart ,

i graduated already , you can do what you want now :D .

you seem to be very angry and moody

in all your blogposts nowadays ,

so i hope you will keep cool .

i won't keep scolding ,

and if you think you're misunderstood by me ,

just tell me ,

don't keep quiet and expect me to intepret ,

like i said , i'm not good .

so i can't intepret well what you trying to tell me without communication .

you can send all your reminders now ,

i don't mind , i don't bother , i dont care .

all i need to care and know is ,

i hope you will live well ,

i hope you will be my friend ,

i see everyone in band as my friend ,

never foe .

i hope you can treat me as your friend ,

i hope you will lead well ,

i hope everyone can play well ,

i hope you all can help me and the seniors to clinch gold .

i hope you all can make me proud .

i love all my trumpeters , i love you

and i seriously hope that you all will do well in anything you do .

i'm sorry if i sounded offensive/angry just now .

i'm not angry ,

i'm just telling you that .

Friends do quarrel ,

but if you get over the quarrel ,

friendships get stronger .

i hope you'll be happy soon ,

i hope you'll cheer up , cool down .

i spent 3 hours doing this ,

so i hope you'll really appreciate it ,

i think i getting even more sick now ,

i really hope you'll understand what's going on ,

what's happening ,

why am i so concerned about this ,

why i love all of you as a section .

i bought some chips which had free swensons ice-cream ,

maybe i'll fork out some money for more ice-cream .

so , you'll organise movie/dinner/lunch/outing eh ,

thanks a lot , and i love you and stop being angry k ,

take care ,

-Gaoxian .

okay thats all for tonight ,

and i'm gonna faint lol .

okay everyone be happy and

WORLD PEACE .

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE ! :D .

err tag replies coming soon and links and relinks too lol .

Zuhao - i really hope you'll forgive me and be happy , and good luck , all the best for anything you do :D .

and thanks for reading this whole chunk of stuff ! :D .

thanks eh , really love you too reader .

okay , have a nice day , good night, sleep well &

bye , :D !

Life Goes On

2010-04-01T22:16:00.002+08:00

No matter you're acting strict ( i look unproportionate head to body ratio lol )

or ,

Trying to look young ?

or ,

cracking your head over some stupid a . maths questions ?

or ,

having the courage to look stupid ?

or ,

just trying to play poker .

okay i know i posed in the wrong picture ,

just for entertainment purposes .

had gastric pains in school today ,

but finished lots of homework ,

while looking at yellow bananas running about ?

and screaming and shouting lol .

the title of this post came from my friend/classmate .

hairi ,

yeah he always says life goes on ,

somewhat helps .

no matter whether you fail , or you pass ,

life still goes on , the world still continues revolving ,

and time does not wait for anyone !

[ i wished it could wait for me though , since i needed 48hours a day ]

yeah , graduated from band .

sad but ,

i think they can handle ,

but i want games day .

and for the 1st day band practice started without me ,

they had games day .

which i waited for so dead long ,

and they had games day .

whattttttttttttttt theeeeeeeeee holyyyyyyyyyy cowwwwwwwwssssss

!!!!????!!!??

whatever then .

i ripped my pants once again

lol , due to basketball .

== , sigh , luckily , tomorrow's GOOD FRIDAY ! :D .

going to study at some mcdonald most probably .

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ,

study study study ,

i seem to be trying to numb myself from something .

something i really don't know .

i think i can recognise some of my sec 1 juniors 0.0 ,

i know i'm random .

was at macdonald , with terrence , joanne , jia yi , samuel & jin lan .

was ranting rubbish though , doing geography homework .

sometimes i wonder what's wrong with me ,

why don't you like me .

i seem to be worst than a ghost , worst than a monster .

sometimes you can't have everything ,

but sometimes you have nothing .

nothing , at all .

was ranting crap at terrence ,

then he suggested :

a) go one corner emo and cut myself ( thats stupid )

b) cry ( thats also stupid )

lol cause i'm stupid ,

but i don't do those stupid stuff :D .

was listening to songs ,

felt like headbanging ,

but i seem sick lol .

so i better post something .

before someone says " eh why so loooong never post ah ? "

lol .

i'm hearing bleed it out - linkin park , now .

i know it's old ,

i'm an oldie .

i don't know why ,

but i seem to miss everyone in band a lot too .

especially ,

errr .

i think i better not mention names lol .

i think i better break the habit ,

i'll forget everything .

sometimes i think too much ,

i really think too much ,

i still get jealous ,

what the h... is wrong with me seriously ,

i think i better go off to sleep

as soon as possible after i bathe later .

i seem to recall memories of people i know previously lol .

like errrrrrrrrrrrrr primary school ,

secondary one - two friends or friends siblings and stuff .

ok this is random .

oh yeah if you see a brown straped watch with a gold top ,

digital ones , like adidas ones ,

tell me where you saw it okay thanks :D [ i feel like getting one ]

gotta sleep after bathing ,

have a nice day and good night !

bye .

Heartbroken

2010-03-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you have to make choices ,
and as usual ,
there will be two sides of a choice ,
one , someone will be happy
that's being the most obvious one ,

two , someone will be sad ,
i'm trying to hide it ,
CAN'T YOU SEE ?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .
lol am i just crazy ,

i don't understand why people view me differently from ,
i better not mention names then .
i really don't understand why ,
i'm ugly ?
:D i guess thats the obvious reason .

i admit i'm slow ,
i don't learn things fast ,
i always say something's easy ,
but i always fail to do it .

it's saddening to hear that word you know ,
but it might be worse if you didn't reply .

the obvious thing and feeling i should feel and do is ,
to be sad , then go find a corner emo and cry .
but ,

it doesn't seem to be the case ,
tears just can't come out from the eyes ,
i wonder what's wrong but .

it's most probably the last chance ,
i could see her closely again ,
on friday .

today was horrible .
i don't know why but the feeling became worse ,
i don't show sad faces ,
it's either i'm angry or happy .
i always try my best to smile ,
today was rather different .

the smiles i do usually ,
seems so hard today .

i feel sad , i feel like a loser .
i feel dissapointed , and sometimes this emotion becomes hard to express like ;

just some old crappy pictures .
was trying to tear some crappy yellow flower in the school libary today ,
first time there , quite nice ( as compared to previous one )

then was feeling damn odd .

ah , i don't know what to do .
really don't know what to do ,
i guess the only thing i CAN do , without you noticing ,
most probably a last glance from far away .

can't cry , so damn bloody busy with school work ,
seriously no time to blog and stuff ,
feeling sad ,
so , just had to blog it out ,
still feel sad ,
so it seems to be useless .

less than about 48 hours to game over ,
i wonder what can i do .
i think , i ponder .
i'm really sorry if i'm noisy ,
was just entertaining the two guys beside me ,
they will be very sad , if no one go and perk them up .
thus , i become noisy .
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy .

ah , just let it brood over in my mind for some more time ,
maybe it'll just float away .
thanks for the support .
thanks for reading .

i'm sorry if i didn't relink or whatever ,
seriously got no time , will do it as soon as i got time ,
i still don't know why do you not like me ,
i hope you'll give me a reply ,
no matter where you are , what you're doing .

thank you so much and ,
i'm wondering who's matsuo ?
ok thats all so ,
bye .

Busy

2010-03-16T22:31:00.002+08:00

Really very busy and hungry .

got cip tml ,

wonder if i could wake up on time .

i wonder why do i headbang when i hear songs but

ah whatever .

so many random people are tagging my blog ,

thank you for finding your way here but ,

it won't be pleasant since ,

i DO bite hard .

lol that was random .

thanks to zuhao for your continuous tagging lol .

you know ?!

till now i still like her .

i feel like an idiot , a moron .

i seriously don't know what to do .

even though everything i do seems to be useless ,

i didn't regret knowing you every single bit .

i wished i could know you further .

i wish .

like FAT HOPE right ,

so i think i should seriously stop dreaming .

gotta sleep early ,

got cip tml .

sometimes i really wonder ,

why didn't you fall for me ? ;(

i sound like a perverted freak here ,

yeah just jotting down some crap which flew past my head .

if i could just keep dreaming ,

keep wondering ,

keep thinking ,

keep pondering ,

keep fascinating ,

that you'll like me .

okay , i got a very nice song !

Animal i have become - Three days grace .

go listen ! maybe i will change blog song ,

if i really have the time .

sorry for not posting for like half a year !?

tag replies :

Xueling - of course i busy lah , cannot see out meh .

Jia Yi - Merry christmas to you too ! [ so damn late :P ]

Xueling - okok no problem .

Zuhao - thanks lol , me and fongyin solo ah ? 0.0 ?

Zuhao - yeah i know i taking old level lol . thanks for tagging so much anyway ,and the spams lool wtf.

hannah - thanks ! :D yeah i don't know whats (Y) though . so YEAH (T)(T)(T) thanks ! .

Zuhao - what gaoxian senpai ? wth ! thanks for keepiing my blog alive lol .

Zuhao - no valentine this year , chinese new year boy . yeah ultrataggy , sounds like ultraman lol wtf .

xiaoblurzxc - oh hi , yeah i know who are you le , i'm lazy to link ps , will link soon .

Zuhao & xiaoblurzxc - oh okay , lol wth . like arguing sia .

okay have to go ,

bye .

Busy

2009-12-16T17:52:00.002+08:00

very busy with many different stuff nowadays ,
holidays seems to be even worse than school days ?
yeah got lots more stuff to do and attend so ,
bye !

tag replies ;

Zhihao - it wasn't me ! someone else was using my handphone == .
Zuhao - it wasn't me too == , someone else was using my handphone .
Zuhao - thanks :D .

thats all ,
have a nice day &
bye !

Screamo

2009-12-05T13:15:00.004+08:00

i'm using my sister's laptop again ,
so , i don't think i can find any useful pictures anywhere though .

finally got back my guitar from hans ,
still lack my amp with kevin .
ah , i need a new gig bag .
mine's tearing away .

and i haven't got completely bored of screamo songs yet !
WOAH .
was listening to linkin park 's given up just now .
yay go on , scream ! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee lol wtf .
i also want learn how to scream leh .
but somehow it's so damn hard ,
maybe cause i don't know the secret technique behind it .

LOL ?
i think i better start revising a. maths ,
yesterday's a. maths tuition was horrible .
yeah indeed horrible .
but i did learn something !
tangent - secant theorem .
out of 3 which i needed to know !?

how horrible can it get yes .
but english tuition was definetly nice .
it's always fun , not meh ?
ok i'm talking to myself .

thanks for reading ,

tag replies ;
Xueling - so lame !
Hermioneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee - haha , thanks for tagging ah ! i was 150 when i was sec 1 i think ? HAHA , but i admit i'm still quite short now , aww . :D .

thats about all ,
so , have a nice day &
bye , :S .

P.S : someone was meddling with my phone yesterday night , so , if anything funny occured yesterday night with your phone ! , NOT ME hor !

Left out

2009-12-03T14:00:00.002+08:00

my little cousin is cute yeah ?

i'm using my sister's laptop , so ,

i won't have my own photos though ,

so i just took one ,

1year old hongkong pic .

i just finished chapter 1 of a maths ,

and abit of chapter 2 .

i'm doomed at this rate .

i won't be able to study everything !

and now they cancel so many band practices ,

i have no idea what to do though ,

i'm going for the 22nd one ,

hopefully nothing odd happens like ,

i lost my keys , the door is stuck or the bus breakdown or whatever .

and then i can't go again , since i'm going malaysia .

i seem to be so busy this holidays .

city music is having a nice sale ,

but i don't seem like i have the cash to buy many stuff that i want though ,

before discount it was $5885 .

after discount , it was $4200 .

so whats the difference yeah ,

i'm so poor .

sigh ,

and i'm feeling lonely .

i talk to myself .

there was once though ,

i asked myself ,

do you think "blahblahblah" is a real friend ?

and i always get no .

lol , and the truth is also no !

WOW .

talking about the trip , would be once i got the pictures !

talking about the performance .

sigh .

i thought i could make my way through even though ,

jiayi and fathiah got caught , and couldn't play .

but , still !

i got caught with fiona , and we can't play .

i didn't came for 1st practice due to my mom took my keys ,

without telling me , and i ended up locked at home ?

2nd practice cause i was overseas , in thailand .

yeah but who cares ,

i'm just a plain simple loner ,

whereby there won't be any difference with or without me .

so i just sat on the floor of the pathethic small band store ,

and stared everywhere ,

doing simply nothing but walking around .

you wouldn't know how horrible was it .

then , i followed haziq , with gilda and accompany .

to jurong point to have our lunch !

okay , it was long john silvers ,

i was getting bored of the grilled thingy though .

ate the grilled chicken again .

saw hermione and fiona and some others though .

then we went to some park near jurong point ,

got my shoes and feet all filled up with sand ,

then went off to libary to do nothing .

laughed at extremely random pictures on gilda's phone ,

talked lots of crap .

looking at them writing lyrics of some song ?

and also looking through some taekwuando book .

and i found out jing xi knows how to cook japanese dishes well ! ,

somemore can make bento , still got art one .

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo , pro .

yeah then went to opp. huayi basketball court once again , slacked for an hour ,

waited for jiayi and accoumpany as they were playing pool !??

sigh .

i didn't got fed up though ,

yeah , my tolerance level so high !

played basketball ,

for the 2nd time i'm finally playing full court ,

i only got in a 3 pointer ,

sigh .

once !

then injured my right little toe .

and went back home to slack .

haven't jammed for sometime ,

but i prefer playing basketball .

i can't touch the rim .

how pathethic i am ,

oh yeah i forgot i'm only 150 cm .

thats about all i think , before the next few posts most probably ,

about the trip to thailand .

yeah , and all the durian candies .

tag replies ;

Zuhao - i was finding for it like hell , when my mom just took it , sigh .

Xueling - sigh ?

Chunlin - orh , okay =D .

Eelin - very sorry ah , ;( , i wanted to perform too , sigh .

Xueling - the new school is like shit , trust me .

oh wait , maybe it's worse than shit .

yeah whatever !?

and i'm going to do my "O" 's there , holy cowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww .

ok that was random .

the end !

have a nice day & ,

bye .

Trapped

2009-11-24T17:31:00.007+08:00

I was stuck at home today ,
is either someone took my keys ,
or i had just misplaced it somewhere .
sigh , missed band though .

slept for 2 hours , waited for 2 hours ,
contacted everyone just to get someone to open the door for me ,
unfortunately , everyone was just so busy .
sigh , waited till five plus and finally my dad helped me open the door ,
too late for band .

can't blame anyone else except me yes ,
i still promised daniel that i'll pay for his portion first for the band fund ,
sigh .

I bet no one notices that i'm not around today ,
yeah who cares right , sigh .
but ,
really thanks to these few people ;
HANS for helping me bring back the guitar ,
KEVIN for helping me bring back the amplifier !

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ,
i think no one cares whether i'm going to band anot but ,
i won't be coming for the next cause i'm going to thailand !
and i'm NOT PERFORMING for prom thanks to this .
sigh .

i'm sick ,
like something's stabbing my stomach ,
and my mom says it's good wow ?
lol .
hao zhuan fan ying ,
means you're getting better .

and i'm having fever nowadays ,
eating penadol penadol penadol ,
seems to be getting better ,
woohoo , ;D .

& continuing with the large spam of photos :

yeah it's the welcome to vivo city sign ,
and you can see the united overseas bank there too ! WOW .

i found that temasek polytechnic's toilets are so clean ! ,
nice effort though , unlike err ...
no comments .

so old photo , of my trumpet case with trumpet at the side ,
twisties which i gave to hermione ,
my book list ,
and my kinder bueno for best improvement in chemistry !
F9~A1 ,
of course me lah , chey :D .
[the twisties everyone in 3A also get ! ]
but my shake head results cmi ! yay , == .

Hungry waikit trying to eat his COOKIE !
at subway with kevin and waikit .

woah , does this tempt you to go to long john silvers to eat !
okay good . like some advertisement ,
since i kept eating it for 2 subsequent days .
WOW .

when i waited so friggin long for my plate with the no.15 at ,
vivo's or orchard's long john , i forgot lol .
yeah .
but the grilled thingy is definetly A* ,
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet .
won't get tired of it though .
yeah the chicken and the deep sea fish ,
haven't tried the rest yet ,
the salmon might be real nice .

can't forget you though ,
it's stuck on my mind .
sigh , this is getting real though ,
i think i will be back on monday night .
but who cares yeah .
i must still rush to the 1st december thing ,
sigh , what a busy holiday .

i keep procrastinating about studying my a. maths ,
sigh , useless .
i haven't studied my stuffs and did my homework yet ,
and my dad will come and scold me about my ,
"Wonderful" results that i got ,
and about your future and ,

aiyah , your sister better than you hundred time ah ,
useless idiot lah ,
like that how to go JC , go sweep the floor you want ah ?
being a beggar is the best job you can get .

sigh ?
i don't want to care so much ,
and i'll get chocolates and sweets for people from the trip !
hope i get something nice in thailand , LOL errrrr ,
something like , I LOVE THAILAND ,
lol so dull .

yeah anyway ,
miss me !
who will right , rubbish shit , i don't even know why i typed that .
errrrrrrrrrr , thats almost the end .
so i won't be blogging , as i'm coming back on monday around 10pm !
sorry for that . 0.0 ,

tag replies ;
xueling - yeah if there's such a technology or something ? super high-tech , LOL .

yeah thanks a lot for reading so far ,
would be flying at wednesday 8am ,
around there i think ,

i'm really really very very SORRY for not performing for prom night ,
no choice sigh ,
next year , pray can ah , pray everything !

and i hope to find my keys !
thanks a lot for reading this far !
have fun &
Bye !

P.S : & also please help me click on the advertisments too ! ,
even though they don't give lots of money , thanks a lot ! =D .

Failure

2009-11-19T18:39:00.003+08:00

looks like a condom to me though ,
when he didn't draw the eyes ,
i find this physics tuition teacher odd ,
but somewhat special .

he has his own teaching style ,
and i seem to understand !
thats good yes finally .

and draws around the board as depicted below ,

woah ?
quite artistic 0.0 .

the toilet at clementi arcade outside ,
after joanne and hafiz's passing out parade .
thanks to his shirt though , then can go arcade !
will post other pictures soon .
at first i thought 50 , 000 bucks .

when got so expensive one?
then go see clearly , it's just reflection , lol $500.00 ,
add the extra zeros to scare people !

i didn't know what toilet i went into , inside the guys toilet ,
then deon told me to come out once i was done ,
then i was laughing over the sign outside my cubicle ,
LOL ,

laoahpek custom designed signature toilet cubicle .
=D

and continuing with the physics tuition thingy ,
i was attentive and yeah .
rather intresting .
! ,

i did highlight and also jotted down notes .
wow , how rare .

had been rotting at home for 2 days ,
was staring at the calander at midnight today ,
was just wondering why was today monday ,
and found out that i was looking at the october's page .

time flies fast .
i hope to clear my pimples ,
lol . who doesn't .
i hope to be a little more fat .
lol . who wants to be more fat .

going to lavender tomorrow to get my passport noncence done .
yeah and fly to a land where no one knows me ,
and live happilly ever after .
what rubbish .

i told myself that i will do my a maths revision and stuff today ,
and yet failed
i failed to do everything i wanted to do today ,
thanks to the computer ,
ah ,

sigh , i'm getting real bored nowadays .
maybe getting just a little worried about the "prom night/graduation night" though

and i find people nowadays very superficial ,
i hope i'm not .
i don't even know whether i detest them ,
since i don't even know whether i am one of them ?!

tag replies ;
Xueling - spam sia you !
Zuhao - oh okay , off to see it straight away then =D

stay tuned for more pictures & updates ,
bye .

P.S : the previous pic of the bull-eye i forgot tilt the picture , not agaist gravity ! sigh .

It's soon over .

2009-11-18T16:19:00.002+08:00

familiar ?

the photo was one day ago ,
in band room ,
whereby some bulletin boards & darts were found somewhere .
will describe the day ,
quite fully ? later .

as i was thinking about some other stuff ,
and getting myself so into some songs .
i think ,
it's soon over ,

and i hope when i say it's over .
i won't regret saying it's over .

many days have passed ,
perhaps weeks , or months or even years .
and i think i still can't let go .
how pathethic can i get yeah ,

but i know the feelings is going to be gone soon ,
somehow ... ?

i know you don't get what's over and what's not yeah .
but it's something rather personal ,
so i think you won't get it .

unless you know what the heck i'm talking about .
?

i'm not that good ,
the bull's eye was just , PLANNED .
pinned by me though .
didn't play the actual way , if you want , yeah .
will be posting the pictures soon .

small bit by bit .
so stay tuned yeah ?

i have a goal ,

definetly not only this yeah .
but it seems just impossible .
too short , too weak , too lousy to do it .
cause ,
dunking is not an easy thing to me .
yeah won't elaborate too much on it .

and now i have two balls !
on the right side it's mine , sorry for the poor lighting .
on the left side it's jiayi's friend's ball .
it looks like a dinosaur egg though ,
cause it lost it's marks on the ball thus being very smooth ,
and lost it's spherical shape . now looks like an egg .
mine is just very new , played with it once only ! 0.0

don't borther about the positioning of the two balls though ,
iknowwhatyouarethinking !

deeply drunk inside some songs like ,
hotel california by eagles .
really really very sweet song .

i keep comparing ,
i keep comparing myself to others ,
and i always get the negative response .
sigh , but it's the truth ,
and the truth always hurts .

but it doesn't mean suicide / kamikaze
or whatever rubbish .
yeah thats all ,

and ,
bye .

Predictions

2009-11-16T21:51:00.004+08:00

had been some time since i played this eh ?

woke up considerably late / early today again ,
since i slept at 2am yesterday ,
then went to prepare ,
and then went off in my new clothes i bought yesterday ,
showcase , lol .

[random]
i'm eating rambutans as my mom got them back home lol ,
as i'm blogging .
wow indeed sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet .
[random]

met jiayi & group at the swimming complex badminton area ,
was rather surprised to see arfian and ling hao ,
was so bored .
then went to play badminton with joanne ,
got completely owned like shit , 11-2 .
OH MY .

yeah i thought i was on par with her ,
but that was errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ,
ages ago ,
i think it was primary school .
lol ?

since i didn't touch my badminton racket for like ,
1 year already ?
the last session was with sharon & boon hwee & my sister ,
at jurong green cc i think .

there was a competition there today though , lol .
then went to bubble tea ,
and got a odd call from hans .
???

ball .
yay ,
my finger is getting better , woohoo .
like finally .

i think i'm getting better ?
i have no idea how to play it still though ,
played with a fuhua sec guy today ,
him and junwern vs me and haziq ,
and haziq said he was 2 weeks player ,
me one week ,
mine could be true ,

his ? ,
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo FAKE .
lol ,

did learn something i think ,
how to fake .
but i can't pull it off that well .
but i think my layup is getting better .
woohoo .

haziq knows how to make predictions well !
i wonder whats the trick man .
and i found out ,
samuel got braces !
how slow can i be ?

even though it might be tough ,
i think it's time to wash you off my mind .

tag replies ;
Melanie - yeah , when was she not sooooooooooo lame == .
Zuhao - never mind , i just got pissed off for a minute .

thats all ,
bye .

Frustration

2009-11-14T22:37:00.002+08:00

today was rather boring ,
nothing much to do .
didn't went out too .

and i found out something though ,
i can't handle frustration .
and i get frustrated so easily .
then after being frustrated ,
i become self-demoralised .

into a state of ,
i don't know how to explain it .

and my computer ,
just hates me so much ,
that it keeps gives me problems ,
and even though i can't play D.o.t.a ,
or use M.S.N ?
or even place photos from my handphone to computer
after trying so many times .
i will try again tomorrow .
sigh .

i find that at times i am pathethic .
i seriously wonder how pathethic can i get though ,
you just need a few seconds to read all this ,
but i have to think it deep inside my head though .

and thankfully ,
my finger is getting better in a way or so .
and i finally found out how to lay-up !
lol how stupid can i get yes .

oh wait , finally i can online !
WOW , ok i admit this is lame .

and my pimples around my cheecks ,
are getting seriously worse .
and sigh .
they just never disappear ,
i think i spelt that wrongly , whoops .

and i seriously got bored of ,
listing down , er why i suck , and yeah i'm not man and whatever .
doesn't only make me down .
and i think ,
i'm not .

i'm not gay !
yeah .
even though i don't even know how to ,
dunk .

sounds odd yes ,
has been always my dream though ,
even though it might not be possible .

i miss times like ,
when ,
i was sitting at the last chair with haziq and daphne .
really so ,
happy .
i was real happy .

currently i'm still RANDOMLY happy .
it depends on the people around me though .

my section's running out of valve oil though ,
maybe i'll go stealing some from other sections .
when we run out yes .
oops . i seem like i'm announcing it .

and everytime i think of ,
think of ,
think of ,
that .

i just remind myself of being ,
too ugly , too gay , too noob , too lousy ,
too pathethic and yes .

and thats the reason ,
i think it's the reason .
that she ..........

whatever .

tag replies ;
XueLing - yeah , yeah . i know my results sucks , no need you to shoot me summore .
Sherman - it's the truth i think , it's not i'm thinking too much anymore .
ZuHao - thanks for the dedication video , yeah the sequal was , rather funny too :)
XueLing - yeah yeah , and make all the neighbours go crazy ? yeah i already know i suck , no need people tell . and i'm not playing dota . it's spoilt thanks to the new version which i tried to download == .
ZuHao - she's always like that , i don't feel that i'm being pwned though . you never seen pwning before , not dota not blogging . it's something else . and it's not funny . i know i'm loud .
i'm trying so damn hard so friggin , fucking sucking , HARD
to be soft .

it just ,
can't happen or something .
and i know i suck ,
i suck like shit .
i am shit .
yes , i agree .
a lot of mistake ,
yes i agree .

i admit i got seriously pissed off when i saw your comment .
i'm not in a good mood now ,
and i'm already trying my best to re-arrange
the people in our section .

and it seriously doesn't mean playing 3rd = you suck .
i personally know this feeling ,
when you are so desperate to play 1st ,
and you always get 3rd and 2nd .

but this time round ,
NO ONE , including you .
i asked everyone ,
INCLUDING SEC ONES .
"do you want to play 1st ? "
all said no .
you said anything .
or something like that .
if you think you are capable , go .
i'm not hugging my 1st seat like gold ,
i'm not hugging my trumpet like diamonds too .

sorry if i sounded very angry here ,
it's just the facts that if you think you're good ,
3rd is also a test , of whether ,
you can help cover up 1st and 2nds ?

if the 1st and 2nd too loud .
3rd cannot hear .
it's shit .
shit noise .

maybe i should really start rotating players around ,
1st - 4th ,
and even 1st - 6th for Summon The Heroes .

nothing much more then ,
bye .

Sigh

2009-11-12T18:02:00.002+08:00

The skies won't look so pretty ,
it just won't .

i couldn't play my trumpet nicely today i think ,
was shot by the "new" instructor today .
was totally demoralised .

but one thing to note that ,
we shouldn't sleep , and not mark down what he said yeah ,
our standard didn't improve and thats it .

i wore my new specs today ,
and yeah .
whats the big deal ?

yeah , i better think of other better stuff ,
than thinking of someone else ,
and going crazy .

Weak

2009-11-11T22:31:00.001+08:00

I'll grow stronger ,
and i'll learn how to play it well .

Sorry ?

2009-11-05T19:44:00.006+08:00

SORRY ,
hope you won't find that i'm irritating .

Stoned

2009-10-29T16:55:00.002+08:00

just a very random photo from the ,

so called concert thingy at marina bay floating platform ,

you know the ndp one??

today was cross-country .

was very surprized wasn't last .

got run a little ,

since people try to pangseh me since i was walking .

i'm lazy to change my blog song ,

it always fails , i don't know wth is wrong .

tried like over 10 times ,

still cannot change .

== ,

was stoning , staring , doing nothing

for the first 2-3 hours of the cross country .

then finally had to go after sitting there for so long .

walked and run(very little) to the ending point .

then slacked and seriously felt like sleeping .

then i suggested going to ball .

then getting rejected ,

then they insisted on dota .

which i din't want to play .

was getting extremely boring .

so i went home and slept .

and i kept thought of the incident ,

where i saw .

actually ,

i thought juliet likes romeo .

then , now it seems like another case .

and i have no idea what to do .

i don't think i'm supposed to do anything too .

maybe it's really time to let go .

?

2009-10-28T18:38:00.003+08:00

There won't be any pictures today ,
yeah i'm lazy to post any now .

yesterday and today going to school was a
complete waste of time .

slacking sleeping and doing nothing for the whole day ,
with a teacher infront .
how , how , boring .

i thought today would have some important biology thing ,
cause friday is my spa .
then ended up nothing .
lol, so i think i should had skipped school today .

the day before ?
got caught for fingernails ,
then went to one side to slack and wait ,
and missed around 1 complete lesson waiting for the
pathethic nail cutter which was so small ,
and only had MADE IN KOREA on it .
and i took like 5-6cuts to make it go 1 arc around my nail .
[you can imagine how small then , not my nails big ]

then slacked all the way through .
today ?
went to take class file as told by mr goh

then went to class ,
slack slack slack
and then the new chemistry teacher .
lol , i forgot her name .
played some very extremely boring video .
and then i slept and stoned all the way through .
and she was saying ,
EH , WHY THIS PERSON KEEP SMILING ONE AH ?!

lol , she thought i crazy .
actually i was smiling at something else == ,

then a boring social studies lesson ,
then went to take my pile of books to ava room for chinese ,
then mr goh gave us some talk about chinese o levels and stuff .

i felt so dissapointed in my 新文报道 ,
and i failed it so terribly .
when i remembered the format and stuff and how to write .

16/50 leh .
omg
lol
omg?

then the others as usual ,
just shocked that kevin tikam GET ALMOST ALL THE MCQ ,
correct .
how lucky == .

i din't tikam
but i din't get very well also , so whatever .

for other subjects ,
physics was , sigh .
a maths was , sigh .
e maths was , okay
english was , okay
biology was , sigh .
humanities was , expected .
chinese was , yeah as mentioned above , sigh .
but i was happy with chemistry though .

i failed a maths again .
no matter borderline or very jialat ,
still fail .
sigh == ,

i got 68 for e maths .
woohoo , i din't study much for that ,
cause i was going crazy for bio .

and then bio i got 57/58 i think .
sigh , study like hell get like that .

english , as usual , eoy always very high one .
i'm happy with my 62 . actually not that happy .

physics?
just passed .
wasn't that sad as the highest for my class was 66.5?

chemistry .
i did study .
and i got 75 .
LOL
and my results do go in a odd pattern .
CA1 = F9 , SA1 = A1 , CA2 = F9 , SA2 = A1
thus i conclude i do well in papers ,
and i fail the class tests .

but i believe the standard of the paper ,
wasn't that tough .
hearing from others they say a lot is from fys [ five year series ]

so whatever .
overall ,
i think it's okay .
even though with a L1R5 of 25 could bring me to nowhere no jc no anything .
i wasn't sad .

i want to slack for the cross country tomorrow ,
even though it's so close to my house ,
lol .
i don't want to run the hell out .
and get 51 again .
and then get nothing !

and i got S$0 for my walkathon card .
woohoo , and i have to handup on friday .
i think will get sent to mr.shawal and face the music .
lol , i'm poor . yes?

there was a lot of hwk .
including 16 pages of chinese
omg?
yeah .
will jialat if you don't do though .

and i wonder ,
i think i should keep things to myself nowadays ,
and really keep quiet about stuff ,
and control myself not to do very odd stuff .
and not to talk in some odd/crazy manner .

i always lose in quarrels .
i don't know how to talk back i think .
i got my facts right though ,
the person i'm quarreling started it ,
for no reason ?
and ended up ,
i'm the one starting all the rubbish .

wow , and i found out that .
he does shoot out my bad points during quarrels .
yeah , so i decide to make him can't say anything .
cause i'm just , too good .
lol , wth .
seems so impossible ,
since he also mentions all the "noob , lame" points .

i wonder how would i get to change that ,
i din't meant that really ,
and i don't know whether he took it to heart ,
but it's my fault for making him start a quarrel
cause like for 2-3 months ago i was ,
making fun of him by making a song/changing lyrics .

yeah ,
so whatever i did in the past ,
people can just rake it up and up and up ,
and never let it go .
thus , i'm always in the wrong .

nothing much else to type already .

tag replies ;
Chloe - thanks eh ! i look odd though .
Xueling - alien meh , whatever loh . lol , i don't want yours , your one concentrated fats =D .
Zuhao - woah seh , 12am pro liao la ? =D ,
Zuhao - linked up , lol very plain sia , add stuff lah == .
Chunlin - relinked [:

thats all ,
bye .

Faith

2009-10-25T21:09:00.001+08:00

i believe ,
one day ,
you will fall for me .

Still , bleeding

2009-10-22T19:25:00.007+08:00

Don't keep concentrating on my fat nose , i know i am ugly .
from the shop !? at orchard or smth liddat , with the price tag , lol .

I'll be posting extremely random pics , and elaborating rubbish today .
Firstly with ... ;D

I was practicing outside my class yesterday with kevin ? 0.0

Going home after 11 shopping malls , lol .

i wonder what was the woman was looking at eh?

Helping ignatius choose his shoes at suntec .

The gigantic shoe in the middle ? [ LEVI'S SHOE]

FRONT VIEW ! , and the no entry sign .

all having odd expressions ,

i seriously wonder what is TYH on zihui's t-shirt ,

[according to felicia , TYH = thank you hor ??]

yeah whatever .

ANOTHER VIEW ,

wow , cool right so big ^.^ ,

A shoe shop at orchard , or smth liddat . somewhere there lah .

yeah so many shoes right lol .

felicia and zihui bought their high heels here though ,

and felicia and the counter staff was so friendly together ,

and they thought we were primary 6 , omg .

The Killer Shoes .

Me and zihui with the sunglasses ! ,
I look odd . [but zihui looks cute , right !? LOL ]

First place we went at woodlands !?

And this proves it !

at popular's cd-rama , so busy looking at albums and singles and stuff ,

unlike me looking around doing nothing and taking pictures lol .

JAM BALL ,

lol i look so tiny .

oh wait , when was i not tiny ?

i feel so small and useless and ugly and pathethic .

means it's time to really grow big and fat .

lol

i did okay for exams , will post results soon .

i think ?

Band was boring ,

extremely ,

and mrs chee is gone .

i don't feel good though

and many sec twos din't come today ,

but who cares , maybe i care ?

i don't know .

i have a "friend"

which totally ignores me for no reason why ,

after exams .

i wonder why ?

maybe when she's bored then i'm the person to go .

sigh ,

hans keeps on ranting with mouse mouse mouse ,

and it does gets boring .

and the mouse , don't fall for the rat .

i am the rat .

and the mouse goes for romeo ,

and the rat bleeds to death watching mouse with romeo

i wonder why ;

i'm ugly , small , thin , pathethic , gay and .

don't feel like adding on to the list ,

would post about the haw par villa trip asap .

ANYWAY ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HERMIONE SUN !

on her 15th birthday tomorrow , 23 oct .

thanks for viewing ,

tag replies ;

Zuhao - no lah , you == .

Chunlin - is that so ? quite i guess , lol . 0.0 ,

thank you so much for tagging anyway ,

have a nice day & bye .

Balljam

2009-10-19T10:14:00.001+08:00

Would be posting about the concert
plus outing with ignatius and group to haw par villa .
=D ,
off to practice for prom , ball and jam .
[you might see me under kevin's block!?]

okay , bye . =D ,

How Sweet ,

2009-10-17T13:08:00.003+08:00

WOW , HOW SWEET .
[ i think you should be guessing i'm making this thing for someone ,
or i made it myself just for fun ]
it's made up of straws , lol you know !? drinking ones .

hahahahah ,definitely not i made myself lah , like DER !?
how can someone with art F9[actually not that worse] do this !?
thanks to : JING YI [ for the heart+delivery]

lol , i feel so honoured . HAHA CHEY .
okay continueing with this , erm .

yeah close up on my name , like smudged off aww .

and mine and she wrote her name somewhere nearby too .

I wonder why she gave it to me though ,
still don't get the meaning .
yeah ,
er ?
got one super random pic down here ;

CHIO BO !?

MINE ! [thanks to kevin's popular voucher]

HAHAH ,

and my photography very good right .

was at english tuition ,

had nothing better to do , then just took out stuff to take pictures .

and i love the design .

the "executive" DESIGN .

HAHAHAHA ,

sounds very high-class right .

going to a concert ,

thanks to my ah yi for the tickets , hohoh .

with sharon , sister[xueling] & sherman .

lol ,

before that going to shop first ,

but most probably i'm carrying the bags again aww .

lol .

okay then sunday i would slack , then go physics tuition make-up ,

then go basketball on monday !

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FINALLY .

go train muscle .

HAHA CHEY WTF ?! ,

grow taller yes ,

then tuesday going out with ignatius , gabriel , felicia and more ;

for the crazy shopping thing ,

which we did last year too !

HAHAHA , DEFINITELY FUN X 110% ,

and thus my schedule is packed up once again == ,

HAHA GOOD THING , THAN SLACKING AT HOME

rotting and die , 0.^ <--- i make one , wtf is this though ? HAHA .

& i was so influenced by the ,

The Lemon Song - Led Zeppelin ,

wow , like so nice

and there's one odd lyric though .

Squeeze me till the juice comes out from my legs ;

don't think dirty yeah

[ even though i am ?? 0.0 , wtheck .]

HAHAHA ,

ODD RIGHT .

err , and yeah .

congratulations to MARTIN CHAN JIA HAO !

for his first electric guitar [ esp ] and his first electric amplifier ! [ line 6 ]

he bought with his own $$ , wow ?

yeah thats it i guess all about today ?

and there's band starting next week ,

and the first day going back to school is wednesday ,

then got band , aww .

yeah whatever ,

and cross-country is coming again ,

so lets crawl our way to the finishing line ,

really don't feel like running ,

it's all about a hoax telling us got a lot of prizes ,

and then coaxing us to run , HAHA .

how nonsencical [ i think i spell wrong ?]

yeah , thats it .

tag replies ;

ZUhao - yeah , i know . [ btw , my tuition mates thought your name was pig hao , 0.0 , LOL ]

CHUNLIN - good that you noticed , =P HAHAHAHAHAHAH . [ i made an effort to remember , LOL ]

okay thats it and ,

have a nice day , and goodBYE ! =D .

OHMYGOD?!

2009-10-15T18:31:00.003+08:00

OHMYGOD ,
i'm definetely going to get my hands on this thing one day .
heheheheh .

but it's discontinued and , like so damn rare [summore fender custom shop ]
aww .
the teal green metallic colour super nice omg .
i can't believe my eyes .

yeah whatever , before i get this ...
i better study for physics tml , HAHA .
okay thats all peeps .
BYE !

Chemistry

2009-10-15T14:53:00.001+08:00

Chemistry was indeed ,
easier than expected .
no idea what happened to the standard though ,
okay =D bye . [ this might be the shortest post ever yet ]

Happy birthday to Qiwen

2009-10-13T17:06:00.004+08:00

YAY , THE TITLE SAYS IT ALL ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAN ! , LOL .

okay i admit i'm lame .

slacked at home playing this .

and then went to play dota and some other random rubbish .

how bored can i get ?

today's paper was additional mathematics .

i admit is either i'm dumb

i din't study well enough ,

wrong studying techniques ,

or the paper was just too hard .

good game already ,

i doubt i'll pass ,

[ actually i have confidence in passing ]

but i don't think will do well .

GG ,

i think i'm getting too blur at times ,

on monday morning i think ?

saw hans at his bus-stop in the bus , then

took same bus and went to school .

then on the way to send him to his class ,

then he keep saying SLSL ,

when i was like wondering wth he saying .

LOL then we walk till quite far away then say SL sitting there .

how blur can i be .

i drew stuffs on the excess paper during el paper ,

but i can't find it to take a pic , how sad .

sigh , i'm not rich .

but i'm happy enough with myself i think .

lol , cause i saw a very nice cooooooooooooooooooool amp ! ,

not say very big , 40 watts .

but costs $1.3k , 0.0

only got half the money of that == ,

yeah whatever .

Juliet loves romeo

2009-10-12T16:40:00.003+08:00

Sigh ,

the title says it all ,

by the way , the jason pic was taken by kevin , just for entertainment

purposes .

sorry ah , hahaha .

i always get hurt ,

cause i'm the extra calerfare ,

sigh .

and the efforts go unappreciated , and ignored .

Juliet loves romeo ,

juliet's friends agree that romeo is handsome .

and in this pragmatic world ,

[pragmatic - practical]

people only look at faces ,

how well do you look and ;

handsome = i love you

ugly = i hate you

sigh , sometimes i must really face the music ,

and admit the fact that

i am really ugly .

and i can't seem to change the fact .

when juliet loves romeo ,

and there would just be some other guy ,

sitting at a corner ,

pondering why wasn't himself being romeo ,

watching his juliet walk away .

and after all ,

juliet fell in love with romeo and happilly ever after ,

but rarely people know ,

about the sad part of this story .

[ wow i seem so good at lit ! ]

lol , i seem so depressed ,

oh wait , when was i not depressed then ?

Bleed ,

2009-10-12T13:42:00.010+08:00

don't i look like a small kid !?
LOL , HAHA , MY HAIR WASN'T SPIKED THOUGH .
lol ? we were at sakura celebrating ,
ahgong's birthday ! HAHAHA .

random pic from hans & wanxuan & deborah study trip ?

we were at science centre for the mac lol ,

Deborah calling someone ?

woh , like couple seh ^^ heheh .

While i contiued taking pictures LOL ,

i think wanxuan was pointing for hans ,

to the toilet ? LOL . hehhheh .

clearly shows the macdonald's LOL .

Wanxuan's meal .

Deborah's meal .

Hans meal !? SO MANY RIGHT ,

summore he got another meal + another burger then full .

like spent 15 bucks on mac for him LOL .

i din't eat , but i cop their fries , din't feel hungry , HEHEH .

his crumpler + his laptop + my bag , seems very compatible yeah ?

watching some youtube video ,
lol the field is nice , rainbow ,

like game ! LOL .

YES , SAKURA ! AT jurong sports and recreation ,

or smth liddat i think ? at joo koon .

first time here though , HHEHHEH .

Ah mei don't know doing what to zhi tat ,

with ah hen's twist !?!
and zhitat's super odd face .

just some random pictures of the table !?

The table we were at , with 19 and 21 i think ? LOL .

on the children side , lol .

the other side filled with adults .

HAHA ,

like so rubbish , i zoomed to this ,

din't took other pictures liao i think ?

PROCESS OF doing my name ,

with hans helping me light up using the lantern plastic stick ?
LOL .

this pic wasn't from hans phone ,

i still can't get shilin's pic / mine from his phone !? LOL .

okay if you see hans in the foreground ,

do notice shilin in red and her cousin don't know doing what ?

Process of making my name again , zzz .

hans phone got my name all lighted up made by me , but lighted up by

me hans and shilin ,

AWW .

Time to show off my $163+ crumpler heheh , =D .

chio bo ! on the bus , LOL .

Randomly took a pic of the outside ,

and seemed like the picture was a failure or smth , ? super mix .

the road seemed different !? LOL .

Dream school ! haha chey no lah . LOL ,

what is he doing !?

Standard hair cut .

Off standard . HAHA !

Another random pic , lol why i keep taking pictures of trucks ?

Crumpler eco-friendly bag , WOW COOL .

LEGS !? i was sick then i went orchard road to get my crumpler , LOL !?
seemed like i pon school to get my bag with my sis , LOL .

random enough ?

wow , i should learn how to smile like this ,

woh , naked girl seh ! =D , OMG .

THERE SHILIN , see ! i was at orchard road !

HAHAHA , people thought me and my sis tourist sia , keep taking pics .

Of extremely random stuff like this ?

and the other side ! HAHA , like nothing to see , lol so boring .

From far like cannot see anything leh , hahaha .

okay thats all for the pics ,

for more elaboration .

i went to crumpler and pon school ,

no actually not pon i had fever in the morning then no more hahaha .

went to sakura to celebrate ah gong's birthday with cousins & family .

yeah thats about that .

and went to shilin's flat nearby for lanturn festival .

still haven't got the pics , how pathethic .

okay .

anyway ,

i'm so sad and tired today .

bio paper was okay actually .

e maths paper 1 was quite easy .

heheh , everything went quite well i guess .

slacked like shit after i finished my bio paper , like got 1 hour .

so damn bored , LOL .

okay thats all i guess ?

and i really feel like getting a bassssssssssss .

seems so cool .

HAHA , OKAY .

[not acoustic bass lah , like der/duh ]

okay thats all .

have a nice day & BYE ,

[btw , happy birthday to zihui once again , ]

Happy birthday to Zihui .

2009-10-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

Ps for the sucky pic though ?!
i wonder why my handphone and the comp screen will have this kind of ,
black white zebra stuff?
she's the only one on my msn contact list you know .
LOL CHEY ,
[ if you were dumb enough to believe that ]
look at the FOUND .
and i admit i prefer the older msn than this ,
not that old though , LOL . since i don't borther about all the ,
[b] [/b] [a] [/a]
rubbish .
yes .

the title says everything though ,
i repeat then ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZIHUI , [Band]

[wow , i so sweeeet right , LOL WTHECK]
[better thank well ah , HAHAHAH , ]

and i know the picture is rubbish
just took it from msn , yesterday !?
yeah .
i know i'm creative enough .

still got tons of pics ,
this post was just made for her , so yeah , see how good i am .
okay thats all i guess ?

gotta go back chiong biology & e maths .
wish me luck in finishing 14 chapters of torturous biology .
sigh , biology is always so dull .
but i can score ! HAHA , OKAY i seem so show off .

anyway , click on the ads if you just have the time to ,
or feel like helping me , thanks a lot heheh .

and my dad found out about my 163 buck crumpler ,
i better fill up the hole in my bank asap ,
before he chops me into 9120310239128098 pieces , LOL .

he din't seemed angry !? LOL , odd right .
okay . anyway , thanks for viewing / tagging .

P.S : this post was scheduled at 12am , made at around 3.30pm , 11 oct '09 .

tag replies ;
Xueling - of course lah , prima deli , summore quite ex leh . hahah .
Shamiraaa - LINKED UP , thanks eh ! HAHAHAHA . =D .

thats all , have a nice day .
good night and BYE ! HEHEHEH ! =D .

Thanks , thanks and more thanks

2009-10-10T23:25:00.012+08:00

Hey peeps ,
i'm going to introduce my extremely special birthday post to you all .
and i'm sacrificing my sleeping time , look at the time now zzz .
yes .
and i posted like 32 pictures in total ,
hopes your comp lags and hangs and dc and spoils .
chey no lah .

yes .
on top is me cutting the cake we bought , i chose ,
and the flame was from kevin's lighter which i bought .
LOL ,

okay let the pictures do all the talking
by the way ,
sorry cause i din't borther to arrange it in order =D .

Sharon's present , 16 pieces of ferrero rocher , and 2 SEX bands ?
but it's not black . LOL ,

Qiwen's penguin on my bag !

my freezer ! , LOL no no don't borther looking at the stuff .

concentrate on the present ,

dove chocolate by my sis and sis boyf .

Kevin's miniature fender stratocaster on my piano !

ps if it's filled with the metronome and stuff and sex bands and

my perfume rubbish and ya , all on the piano .

Left side view of it , in class on my table !

Right side view ?

No idea who's legs are that , maybe arfian? lol ,

front view !

Cake eating in progress .

aww , waikit just wants more mango cake slices .

the pathethic cake being eaten up by us ,

thankfully there wasn't any birthday bash by uzair / smash on my face == .

after 1st round of servings , LOL .

Qiwen running away from appearing on my blog ,

but ended up still did , HAHA !

Waikit too !

while kevin sat there and ate the cake and wondering

why both of them running around like mad people .

CAKE !

CAKE AGAIN .

Kevin coming after bringing the stuff from his house ,

Qiwen licking his finger? LOL .

waikit potential photographer sia ? LOL , HAHA .

More crumps from the cake? leftovers LOL .

no one licked them up , aww .

Cutting cake process .

overall view of bags , plastic bags and cake . and of course me and the twist .

close up ? LOL .

Cake with all the candles + the happy birthday thingy ,

i kept it with me at home , LOL .

another view of it?

nice pose , qiwen .

I wonder wtf i was doing seriously .

CAKEEEE ,

THE CAKEEEE ,

AND EVEN MORE CAKE !

HAHAHA , okay thats all for the pictures .

yes elaboration .

we celebrated at the void deck of kevin's house .

then saw uzair and arfian ,

LOL , thanks for the wish though .

and i have to thank all these people ! , HAHA .

JASMINE [lim] ,

MOM ,

XUELING & SHERMAN ,

WAIKIT ,

HANS ,

SHILIN ,

MS HAN + 3A ,

JUN RUI ,

GEORGE ,

KEVIN ,

QIWEN ,

IVAN ,

DEON ,

MELANIE ,

BRENDA ,

AGNES ,

DEBORAH ,

WANXUAN ,

JUSTIN ,

ELENA ,

FIONA ,

ZAVIER ,

SAMUEL ,

ARFIAN ,

UZAIR ,

IGNATIUS ,

FELICIA ,

JOANNE ,

ZIHUI [ 3A ] ,

NICHOLAS ,

MR TAN [jit jin] ,

WEI HAO ,

JIE YING ,

GLENNA ,

SYAZWANI ,

SHARON ,

AGAN ,

JAMIE ,

CHLOE ,

KELLIE ,

GABRIEL [i think have ? ] ,

CHUNLIN ,

ENG LENG ,

WILLY ,

JASON ,

ZU HAO ,

YEE HAO ,

ZIHUI , BAND .

and i think thats it .

in no particular order though , through memory ok .

i know i rock heheh .

LOL ,

BY THE WAY ,

don't be sad , you still can wish me now , i don't mind

LOL , THE EFFORT COUNTS MAN .

another 360+ more days to the next one , HAHA .

SO REMEMBER AH ! , LOL .

by the way , if you just read this post ,

or i left you out on my list ,

THANK YOU VERY MUCH , HEHEH .

but do let me know yeah .

went out with sharon today ,

she went to dye her hair brown ,

even though her hair got highlight red liao .

lol then come out colour not bad , reddish brown .

lol like bio ? OMG .

REDUCING SUGAR !?!?

lol , i'm mad .

almost wanted to dye my fringe green .

LOL .

and forgotten that i had school .

did some e maths ,

and going to do little bit more e maths and more bio tml ,

and then go for physics tuition .

and blah blah blah .

yes my schedule .

and i'll post all the other pics next post or smth .

yeah , so stay tuned or smth ?

hahaha , i did effort on this post okay .

by the way ,

my sis just came back

and found out that smrt last train around 12am , LOL .

THEN SAY DAMN EARLY LOL .

and all those SUMMORE SATURDAY LEH .

lol , the green line loh .

HAHA ,

okay

thats all ,

and tomorrow at midnight

there would be a special post ,

for a special someone .

LOL CHEY WTH .

okay .

tag replies ;

Zuhao - yeah thanks , yeah i know ! , HAHA . you smsed me midnight cause you were bored , LOL WTH .

okay thats all ,

have a nice night , and

bye ! =D .

YAY , fifthTEEN

2009-10-07T19:10:00.007+08:00

Hey ,
it's my birthday today .
and i'm very happy with the green cake yesterday ,
and also with the mango cake today
[thanks to qiwen kevin and waikit ]
yes .
LOL , WE CELEBRATED AT A VOID DECK .
[ seems stupid]

yes .
and i would like to comment on some
extraordinary special people
LOL ,
WHICH MANAGED TO tell me so early ! HAHA ,
don't be shocked ah , ps if i ripped your photo from somewhere , LOL .

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm , firstly .

[PICTURE REMOVED]
*due to some reason provided by the person in it ?

thanks to this person[SHILIN] anywayfor trying to sms on 12 but failed HAHA ,
LOL , ANYWAY , i'm happy enough liao .

don't borther focusing on me ,
focus on my sis , LOL I THINK I WAS DRUNK .
HAHA WTF .
okay thanks to her and her boyf , sherman for the birthday present hehe
and the wish yes .

thanks to this guy for sending me early at 10+ ytd ? LOL .
hahahahaha funny enough . [ old pic old pic . ]

IGNORE ME MAN , I LOOK LIKE SHIT IGNORE .
just notice the guy beside haha
thanks for the some money inside the cake fund LOL .
and also the 30+ in total birthday wishes lol ,
spammage on msn and sms , wtheck .

And this guy for the penguin !
HAHA SO DAMN CUTE
and also the spam sms and BIG part in cake fund .
and also for all the lompang home on taxi , hehe .

btw , the person on top the birthday is coming on 6 more days ,
LOL OMG .
wtf HAHA ,
haven't got anything yet .

lol i got some presents hehe .
yay , LOL .
but i think some are going to be late .
LOL ,
but i don't mind hehe .

was a little emotionally not stable when ,
Mr K said "siao ah ? huh you ?"
sigh , he sucks completely .
spoils my birthday .
LOL ,
whatever .

still got a big list to thank though ,
will compile them up tomorrow i try ?
if i have the time to study finish geography and also
do this , LOL .

was , dissapointed i guess ?
or maybe she will do the same ,
she'll send me one day later , LOL .
or maybe she just didn't borther to .
haha , nevermind .

thanks to everyone , anyone
who had the effort to push that few buttons on your handphone ,
say that few words to me ,
type out and then press enter / click send on msn to me .

really thank you very much , heh .
i'm so gan dong , LOL .
and i found out something very very random today .

i seem to meet terrence everywhere !?
LOL , i seem to meet him once everyday even though i didn't plan to .
like so odd ?
HAHA .
so damn coincidental .

i really wonder , what do i want .
hahahaha , i want to be hero .
LOL ,

seems so random eh .
can't stand sleeping in maths lessons today ,
a really sincere apology to ms han though ,
lol , i slept like 2-3 times , after being awoken .
lol , i wonder wtf why i was so damn tired .

i survived the triple science in the morning though ,
was so concentrated ,
then after that cmi .
after 1 hour of maths ........................... ,
then i can't stand the 2nd hour and slept and woke slept and woke .
LOL ,

chiong maths time
or maybe bio .
my bio is lousy
i think ?
lol ,
i wonder .

and now people are talking about retaining all the time ,
and sometimes , i get affected too
and i go crazy , and go
OMG NO I DON'T WANT GO Normal Acadamic
NO I don't want retain
OMG NONO .

lol .
hehe ,
and i found out .
sometimes .
some , friends of mine .
just don't borther .
to wish me
a simple happy birthday .
and i am
so
happy
yet

WHY ?!
CAUSE , I LEARNT THE ELEMENT OF ,
being happy even though you , you .
okay i admit i don't know how to explain .
yes , it's the element of HAPPY .
HAHA , WTH .

i have the element of happy , but i am sad all the time .
yay ! ,
okay , have to go sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy sleepy .
LOL , wtheck .

okay thanks anyway .

tag replies ;
SHERMAN - THANKS HEHE WOW 12 AM 50MIN . oh , okay haha anyway good luck then .
ARFIANARFIAN - HAHA , wht is initials looks tough sia ? don't get it , LOL . hehehe thanks hahahah . linked up , no problemo HEHE .

and i saw a very tall ang moh with a okok height ang boh gf .
LOL ,
and i queued up with someone which is quite tall infront of me today
LOL ,
and i found out that i am 155cm tall and i have to improve on myself .
and i have all fats and i have a bulging stomach with so much fats .
and i have all the pimples on my face and my super ugly hair .
okay thats it .
[ sounds so demoralising , LOL . ]

yeah , okay thats it .
have fun , have a goooooooooooood night .
BYE @ .

P.S : lol , btw my post means that , i'm fifth , but still a teenager , LOL . TEEEEN HAHA OKAY BYE :D .

Happy 15th birthday

2009-10-06T20:23:00.003+08:00

hey ,
why is deborah appearing on top of my
"happy birthday post "
lol , like whatever okay .

went to libary with these guys and girls today , including me ,
the person on top , and ...

yeah very busy , and ...

i agree to that he looks very punkish here , LOL .

like gives the wth wan fight ah face .

lol , got back class photos today ,

as usual , i looked like kns with that super short fringe .

and now i look like kns too !

*kns - kanasai

yeah .

lol ,

it's my birthday tomorrow ,

but i'm very happy .

i'm very contented .

that jasmine[ex-trumpet sl ] remembered my birthday ! WOOHOO .

LOL ,

lets go crazy and strip and . lol ,

okay then ,

seems like some people around me already know ?

maybe i keep saying thts why , hahahaah .

thanks to my mom for the parker pen .

woah , high-class okay , HAHA .

thanks to xueling/sis and sherman/sisboyf

for the chocolate , the dove smth smth one .

heheh .

and of course , thanks to qiwen ,

for the penguin thingy ,

using it to store my handphone though .

if you notice it on my crumpler ,

which i bought it myself for 163 bucks

lol wtf .

okay ,

i seem so showoff .

yes i'm not .

sigh , so pressurised .

i can't stand sitting in school keep concentrating to maths lessons anymore .

and also ,

being awoken by arfian with his "OI" super damn loud one .

lol ,

then laughing at my huh !? then suddenly jump .

P.S : actually i wasn't totally asleep ,

if i was , then i won't wake up with your shouting and stuff =D .

lol , how can i sleep within that 1min , i was trying though .

yay and i'm getting one year older again ,

and i just wonder what can i do about it .

go celebrate with friends and go crazy .

lol .

i doubt ?

maybe people want to go celebrate with me by studying chemistry .

yeah , and i found out hans and deborah only ,

looks at photos in my post ,

not the words .

how saddening .

and tomorrow i think my class will scream like wtfhell they gave it to vanessa ,

cause it's my birthday and ms han noticed it .

LOL .

okay i say it's complete coincidental ,

i din't tell her anything lol .

then wanxuan told me she found out herself ,

so i think i'm fully prepared for tolerating all the ARGHHH !?!?!

but i think it's still very good thing yes ?

having so many people singing happy birthday for me ,

maybe i'm happy enough .

maybe it won't happen .

but i'm already happy enough .

YAY ,

lol .

so what if it's my birthday right ,

the world still continues revolving ,

time still ticks by ,

starving people still die .

[ i seem so knowledgable here ]

yes , okay .

and i admit i forgot how to type sheng re quai le on my msn ,

and ivan helped me edit the sheng i think , hahahaha

seriously wonder how i passed my chinese

[ cause there's something called a dictionary? ]

yeah .

anyway ,

i'll see who says happy birthday to me tomorrow ,

even though i won't borther much .

i'll still take note .

hehe .

i seem so stupid .

okay ,

tag replies ;

Xueling - yeah yeah , whatever . i also don't feel like drinking . lamo , =D

thats it and ,

have a nice day ? goodbye .

the end ;

Penguins

2009-10-05T20:47:00.003+08:00

[Still can't get any pics from hans ]

Hey ,
my birthday is coming in two days .
lol , whats the big deal .
yeah earth still rotates and revolves around the sun ,
and life still goes on .
[sounds familiar to 3a people ?]
hhhahaha .

thank you qiwen for your penguin thingy .
currently using it as a handphone pouch ,
hang around my crumpler . wohoo .

LOL ,
okay one more thing .
i hate my hairstyle
lol , kns .
hahahhaha i look like some tikopek from some coffee shop ,
but who cares . even though i care 0.0 ,

no matter what i still look ugly ,
it's just a fact of being ugly or uglier lol .
listen to my blog song people .
wait a while , hahahaha till you hear the .
"gotta get that "
yeah?

okay ;

tag replies ;

Zuhao - thanks , ;D
CHINESE GF aka XL - lame enough hor you , aiyo . got lah , blind arh you ? HAHA .
[ oh no you want drink right , you crazy one , siao ah .]
Sherman - lol , heheh thanks . you too if you have any EOY? or smth LOL .
okay ,
thats all .
bye !

Lantern festival

2009-10-04T14:06:00.002+08:00

will upload pics ,
haven't received them from hans yet .

i went to celebrate with hans and shilin and her family ,
seems so odd .
lol ,

me and hans were like so damn extra .
but thankfully they left soon after we came [oops]
then i made my name using candles ,
thanks to them for helping me light ,
even though they were quarelling their way throughout the whole thing lol .

i forgot to take group pic ,
but never mind .
at least got super bright fireworks video !
HAHAHA , i went to light 15 at once , then like
harry potter casting spell like that ,
super bright .
will upload soon .
do take note of the smoke too , LOL like so much .

okay ,
today's my ah gong's b'day have to go soon .
and to go my physics tuition
and of course study for tml's el paper 1 [ speech !]
and also social studies about the sri lanka conflict !

and just slack around and do nothing
[i doubt i have the time to do that ]
i want to read The Elephant Vanishes again ,
seems so nice , LOL .

by the way ,
yay i'm going sakura to celebrate for my ah gong's b'day !
and sorry to sharon cause i'm not free , can't go jp buy bag , another day yes .

HAHA , OKAY PEOPLE .
bye ! [good luck for you el / ss paper tml . ]

Drunk

2009-10-03T14:51:00.002+08:00

so random , this was actually taken damn long ago already .
was just feeling bored though .

ahhahahahahaha i want to get drunk .
chey .

by the way ,
the chinese paper was okay .
even though i screwed up the paper 1 ,
i choose Questions 1 and 5 though , the student smoking one and
i forgot whts no. 5

i missed out a lot of main points in question 1 , the letter one .
then i changed the format to similar to bao zhang bao dao .
which means newspaper report . yeah ,

i don't want to fail omg .
lol , anyway it's over .

i nosebleed 4 times yesterday ,
i wonder i was just dieing ,
lol , then i bleed so much till i stained my school uniform !
LOL , luckily din't stain my bag .
yeah ,

then was like bleeding as i played basketball .
i'm not sure how to describe the feeling its like .
it's the combination of the taste of blood in your mouth ,
the feeling of blood on your nose and lip ,
and the sight of blood leaking out staining the floor and your uniform ,
but i wonder whether i stained the basketball but
anyway .

i went to tuition after basketball though ,
we seemed so nerd ,
lol , cause we only had 3 people ,
while the opp. court have like 10+ paikia ,
gosh . HAHA , oh wait , i am nerd .
=D .

then we went off after i bleddddddddddddddddddddd ,
till cannot tahan already LOL .
then went to drink a lof of water .
[even though it seemed useless]

then i just went to ntuc at jurong east ,
to get me a 1.5litre of plain water . [brand is LIFE i think?]
yeah then went straight to tuition .

then the people there was like wondering ,
why i looked so emotionally not stable and pale ,
LOL , actually nothing much happened eh ,
just some
bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeding matters .
LOL , seems so odd .
actually is cause i bleed to much till i felt like fainting lol ,
then i just kept drinking water ,
just in case i faint
lol ,
then i finished 1.5litres in like 1hr ,
wow , then

the tuition teacher said i was a water tank
hahahhaha whatever .
then they say my bag sucks .
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ,
esp . the 2 siaozhabor + K.E.L + engleng's fren ,
aww .

yeah but whatever .

then i felt so weak ,
but i still had to go the a maths tuition .
lol , then then
it was rather okay .
yeah .

then went home .
with hans on a 334 .

yeah by the way , my el tuition teacher
lent me a novel named The Elephant Vanishes
i think ? or The Vanished Elephant .
lol ?
by some japanese writer .
he say not bad , then i read , ok lah LOL .
but of course , i say nice lah , later he wack me .
since it's his favourite novel
hehe ,

okay , i seem so stupid .
reading novels , studying for exams , playing the electric guitar , singing , playing piano , slacking , sleeping , texting someone , staring into space , play basketball super noobishly , going crazy with the boom boom boom !

it really seems that i'm a complete nerd .
oh .
what state i am in man .

yeah , then i got caught for hair thanks to willy , on friday .
sigh .
then i have to cut it .
hahahaa i want to keep it super long at holidayssssssssssssssssss ARHHHH .

lol , maybe i'll go crazy .
go blast music with some super speakers with the
boomZ boomZ boomZ ! boom booooooooooooooom POW
HAHAHAHA , might seriously go crazy .

this is getting to long i think ,
okay i think i'm going to cut hair and
soon going to celebrate zhong qiu jie ,
by the way , happy mid autumn festival people ,
have fun !
[play your candles as if your 3 years old though ]

okay , i have to attend my ah gong's birthday tomorrow + physics tuition make up .
wow , seems like my schedule is so packed up and so !
i don't have the time to study social studies .
and the format for EL paper 1 and stuff .
the speech crap lah .
[then let it fail meh ? siao ah ]

LOL , HAHAHAA won't lah ,
die also must study
okay ,
have fun .
BYE ! , [ good luck for End of Year ! ]

Touching Charity show

2009-10-01T21:01:00.001+08:00

i just want to blog about the
stars for a cause , today just saw .
so damn touching seriously ,
i really feel like helping people there ,

but i just don't have the $$$ , hahaha ,
so i plan to earn lots and lots of money to help people !
[i seem so good here 0.0 ]
wonder how though ,

i can't be a surgeon ,
too disgusting for me , i can't take it .
hahahaha , then i wonder what can i do .

okay , that show always touches me ,
hahahaha , okay this post is so out of link .
okay , good luck for the chinese eoy tml people ,
night , =D .

tag replies ;

XUELING - aiyer , the cher also don't want let me , hana i know i suck =D

okay thats all ,
bye .

Troubled

2009-09-29T16:39:00.003+08:00

Taken quite long ago by kevin during the ecology thing .
i'm troubled .
but i already decided after listening to hans for a while .
i'm really not going to performmmmmmmmmmmmmm tomorrow .
seriously tio pang-sehed today .

to me i guess?
was quite shocked about the swee lee dj thing ,
lol i thought they sell guitar and stuff only HAHA .

okay then , i went off 15mins earlier from the assembly ,
then did nothing and just sat at the red table and chair .
then sat and sat , then got a lot of people come , i still sat there .
hans wasn't there , no one was there .
then i was like sitting there like an idiot , having completely nothing to do .
WHILE ,

the others like hans , chin yee , hafiz , deborah and yeah some more was preparing behind .
i wasn't involved .
you know the feeling ?
sucks like wth .
and i was like sitting there staring at my handphone completely doing nothing .
sigh .

then i just went behind to support haziq , junwern and gilda .
talked a while ,
and thankfully there was jun xian , hisyam and jonathan .
then we went talking , then i din't feel that bored .
but was still that sad , and stared at the floor doing nothing .
odd thing was why the heck was i thinking of something .
something [ that i won't say out here ]

yeah , so odd right .
LOL , it seemed as if i was alone in some dark hole or something .

then went to support haziq and group as i din't have anything to do .
chey no lah , i went to support , drew cards and
went up and down and screamed like wth
[people must have thought that i was mad ]
waving cards and screaming , hahaha like wth .

okay then , the performance almost over , then i went back again , then
went infront when the performance was over , then i performed to myself .
lol ,
i hope no one heard it eh ? LOL .

i seriously wanted to perform for someone ,
tomorrow , but , just din't get the chance to .
despite i begged mr T for permission like 7 times .

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ,
what is this .
then played played and played and sang songs .
and run around for don't know what .

and being scolded by some , 4T? people i guess ?
cause i was just being so noisy . i think ?
no idea wth they said but ,
deborah said they say i noisy . and all the what ,
"thing you sing very good issit? kanasai , sibeh chao " in chinese & hokkein i guess?

just the few characters appearing around the bus-stop i always take ,
i think?
but , who cares?

i hope , the grad would be the best ,
since i already sacrificed so much ,
and even asked a teacher for 7 times till the teacher
gets fed-up and ignores me .

sigh ,
but one thing to be happy about is .
we got $100 bucks donations today i think .
thanks for all your support .
do support errr , people like errrrr .

Hannah , and some others i think .
i won't be emcee or anything ,
since i have bio sup .
=D ,
thanks for all your support !

was just wondering why would i still likeeeeeeeeee her .
since the person already ignored my msg twice .
maybe i'm just being desperate .

ah , whatever .
i just passed my e maths test today ,
damn i just din't have the time to finish it .
16/30 , how pathethic . sigh .

okay thats it for today i think ?
Have a nice day ! , BYE !

Dumb

2009-09-28T20:00:00.004+08:00

It has been quite a while since , i touched this thing .

lol , okay quite some time already .

today was okay . weather : Hot , Cloudy sky .

firstly , i want to announce something very important .

I'm not performing for talent time .

i'm really very very sorry , to those who read my previous post .

i'll state my reasons for not performing so then .

firstly , mr tan IS VERY , VERY DISAPPROVE ,

me and hans from joining talent time .

even though i already prepared the two songs ,

i'm really not happy about this but .

what can i do ?

but i'll be the emcee for tomorrow's talent time though .

i think you all heard jerald today ? and some guys dancing lol ,

i saw them just before i went for my social studies sub .

which was so dead boring and i wanted to go to sleeeeeeeeeeeeep .

was just wondering why huating joined the lesson HAAHA .

then half-way left , LOL .

AND , don't be tooooooooo , sad LOL .

cause , errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr .

we have very exciting and exceptional shows coming right up !

[not including me though ]

yeah , more exciting stuff yes .

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ,

hans and deborah and some more people , are going to sing LOVE STORY ,

by taylor swift tomorrow i guess , it's special cause , there's a certain instrument in it .

where u don't always see , unlike guitars .

[NOT ELECTRIC GUITAR ]

and also , gilda and haziq and more i think ?

is going to perform 21 guns .

awww damn , it's my song !

CHEY LOL WTH I SAYING SIA .

[was just joking ]

yeah then ,

stayyyyyy tuneed to talent time !

about today ,

if you just did notice the last few people of 3A today ,

you would just notice that i wasn't there !

good if you did then , i was late today , '

and was seriously dramatic to get back my ez-link .

it's my first time

FOR THIS TERM HAHAHA .

i'm very sorry to my class .

i think i late + tio hair too much times already .

LOL ,

how get best class sia liddat . chey ! hahahah .

i wonder how the people work to latecomers though ,

what an odd method .

then i schooled at 8+?

lol , then i got "suaned" by ms ooi in the morning .

lol but never mind ,

okay I don't mind hahahaha.

then went down to get a burger .

saw mandy and huimin , chatted a while and went back up .

for the super duper boring social studies lesson .

and after that i felt like a living zombie .

okay , who cares .

then i went off home ,

took my stuff ,

then went to ivory heights swing today ,

then saw lots of people including ,

hafiz , gwendoline , pei ni , hans , deborah , wan xuan , colleen ,

yeah i think thats all , lol .

then some went off , and i took pics of the ones left behind .

slacked around , sang songs then went for piano .

[ will upload some pics soon ! ]

then ate some wanton noodles and went back

the aunties there are always so sweet .

they say i look like some taiwan star , while

i'm so ugly .

migjt be a technique to win customers lol .

okay , stay tuned to all the performances

and gilda one and errr some others i forgot

[she sings wayyyyyyyyy better than me , or THE BAND ]

according to hafiz??

okay , i have no comments .

i know i suck but ,

i did studied like hell and did okok for my o level spa today ! [chemistry]

hahahaha , i got MgCl2 , YAY .

while others got odd results like Mg2Cl5 , MgCl3 and stuff .

yeah ,

but i got wrong for the last question

tikam , since i don't know wth to write !

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh when i studied so much for it .

and i seriously need a new bag .

my bag spoilt , so ,

you might see me hugging my bag around , or holding OR ,

carrying on one side , cause the other strap broke .

i seriously hope to find a bag ,

which is , GREEN&BLACK

NICE

DURABLE

BACKPACK .

i thought of crumpler ,

but the backpack designs not that nice according to hans??

no idea , going orchard on wednesday lol .

like so random right , ok .

and i stil feel very dizzy and have a very bad headache nowadays ,

i worry if i'm late tomorrow , then i'll be doomed ,

then i'll have detention !

and i have no idea what an emcee should say

and i'm seriously dommed tomorrow ,

and i'm sorry to daniel for waiting for my performance today ,

really very sorrry .

i think others than that ,

nothing much already yeah .

tag ! , THANKS HAHAHA .

okay , stay tuuuuuuuuuunned ,

BYE .

Too painful

2009-09-27T20:37:00.008+08:00

Did i just seem so serious on top , hahahaha .
i was just meddling with wanxuan's cello , and it really was fun .
[ it's from C.O , i think it's wan'er one , oops =D ]

maybe this looks better , as compared if i played a violin .
[ what wanxuan always says lah ]
seriously hard hahahaha , but i know how to play abit . YES MAN .
and i'll just elaborate about wtheck happened today then , first elaborating
the ending part , then go to the morning .

Pull up bar at ivory heights , aww i can only do 1 pathethic one .

Seems okay yes? on the 2 bars , where you use hand to walk one ,
understand eh?

Deborah looks zilian , and hans look so busy with the guitar .

ok , good my eyes are just too small .

another odd , one , but it features hans this time , LOL .

okay my face looks like got chop off again , aww .

i was actually posing for this with my super duper messy hair , maybe thanks to the dog ,

which literally raped me . aww .

Test try no. 2 , better issit?

woah , so busy practicing their talent time song ,

while i was sitting around doing nothing and getting

raped by the dog , FiFi . LOL ,

Signature qiao jiao pose , LOL .

i have a similar one but in sch pants , unlike this ,

in New Future jeans/skinnies , i think is skinnies lol .

wow , so busy eh ?

thats all for the pics ,

BY THE WAY ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEH XUE LING , 17th LIAO .

HAHAHAHAHAHA , ps ah , 2 days late .

and then we played see-saw then recorded once for

"about a girl" by the academy is ,

and then went home for wanxuan and deborah

and ended up din't study

but ,

me and hans went 7-11 ,

then got some 5 bucks chips , LOL SO EX .

and then he treat me both chips and water .

so good right , HEHEHEH .

then we eat and talk and talk and then i walked him to the bus-stop and

then he went off in the 99 ,

hoh , then i also went home lah , like der .

or why would i be blogging now ? LOL .

and i found out ,

hans knows me very well !

okay thats good .

and then came today's main topic .

i woke up at like 9+ am , wow .

quite early ?

then i went for my EL tuition make up though ,

wore my "GAME OVER" tee and new future jeans

and my sis red blue trail slippers to tuition .

so hot today that i sweat so much , but

it did'nt smell , lol .

EL tuition was okay ,

rather boring though .

and it hurts .

something happened during the tuition though .

i felt like crying ,

felt like dying .

i felt so helpless .

sigh ,

it's about something very personal though .

not mentioning it ,

but it's not about some person insult or whatever .

you know what kind of stuff i'm talking about yes .

then i went to sms someone ,

i don't wish to say out the name ,

just in case some stupid rumours came out once again .

the person consoled me , [ THANKS A LOT MAN :D ]

but i was very touched in one msg though ,

did , somehow , relieve the pain , SOMEHOW .

but it still hurt after a while .

but i think none of them could see , what the hell i was going through ,

since i was trying to act up a show ,

where i wasn't unhappy and felt like dying .

at the end of the day , it's still one-sided love OR [chinese version]

到了最后，原来是我在自作多情。

and after that met hans and went ivory heights and this was what happened lah ,

and i think ,

please take note ,

I THINK , MOST PROBABLY ,

me and hans would be performing on tuesday ,

after school , at concoss i guess .

IF everything goes okay , and mr tan allows lah .

thankfully lah . LOL .

give me your fullest support no matter what ,

or i'll kill you .

chey no lah ,

support if you wish to , listen if you want to .

BUT if you're coming just to say some ,

aiyo , chao arh gua , ee gay , aiyo so ugly , aiyo so nan ting

hahahahah , you're not welcome though 0.0 ,

okay whatever ,

i think i like cello more , maybe i'll learn violin too just for fun then .

LOL . seems so random .

i think there's nothing much more to elaborate yeah ,

there's O level chemistry spa tml ,

bytheway , please give support to others performing for talent time too !

[JUST SUPPORT MINE ALSO CAN , HEHEH =D ]

tag replies ;

Ignatius - thanks ah , AHAHHAHAHA , i think i said that before too . yeah i should remember what i said to people too , HAHA , thanksthanksthanks a million . : ]

SOMEONE - THANKS EH , HAAHAHAH thanks eh , i feel like knowing who you sia , LOL . okay whatever , thanks anyway , i got over that already I HOPE .

okay , i think thats it

so , have a nice day , and

BYE .

Bleed and Die

2009-09-26T15:43:00.001+08:00

Maybe it's time to , let go ,
bleed and die .

to :
Ignatius - thanks a million .

The Unseen Reality

2009-09-26T13:03:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps .
guess wth is going on on top ,
hahhahaha , it's we all going out to kfc , after sch , before friday's band .
must really thank jia yi , for accompanying me , when .
the rest of the people like kevin hans huating deon all gone .
== ,
and they got a teddy bear for the maths carnival thing at ngee ann poly i think .
aww .

Sometimes i really wonder ,
even though i pursue , i try , i work hard , i'm desperate .
for something else ,
i often ,

take things for granted .
seriously maybe it's time to cherish my friends .
those , who really , treat me very nice .
and i don't mind mentioning someone's name and it's joanne .

thank you so much , heh .
others i won't mention for the time being , i'm not being biased eh .

hahaha lets talk about happy stuff then move on to the sad stuff .
okay , look below .

It's all for the sake of fun though ,
thats what i always say . =D .
wow , pretty shoes yeah ?
lol , after the soccer match which i sprained my left toe ,
fell 2-3 times for slide kick and once for going inside the mud .
awww .

but overall , it was very fun , so
worth it . HAHA ,

then like people like ivan and edwina i guess ,
said my shoe very chio , then give the * thumbs up * expression + smile .
LOL , hahaha then i act angry , LOL .
okay then i was just wondering what to wear on friday .

so i went to change the shoelaces to white , from green on my kappa shoes . and ...

ta da .

so i think you noticed it !?

cause i was green from top to bottom .

LOL

i love green .

HHAHAHAHA .

okay being so random .

now ,

i'm very troubled .

why ? ,

cause the prom night thing is coming ,

then we need to perform infront of the 7 involved teachers first .

then also , one of the teachers , mr T

didn't wanted me and hans to perform for the talent time thing .

cause we needed to keep the element of surprize !

and i think i agree with deon .

me and hans and kevin are already high profile people ,

how to keep low profile

LOL .

then , the band people , supported us to go perform .

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww .

i seriously don't know what to do .

i asked someone for help though .

then the person say go lah , but scared u tio scolding only .

hah , what to do .

and i'm getting seriously pissed off ,

with some , 2T* , people .

when i made the friggin announcement on friday .

for the talent time thing .

they seemed to say , chao arh gua [ ACCORDING TO someone ]

if you just din't know , whts chao arh gua .

it's hokkien language , calling the person smelly sissy .

i wonder why i always get this kind of insults ,

somemore , from some unknown person which i really wish to find out .

from that someone , i mentioned .

i don't mind uzair calling me bapok .

he always say that , till i'm used to it already ,

starting i was very pissed ,

then after that i found out it was just a joke/ another nickname .

and he's a rather nice person too .

i'll see who is the person who made that friggin comment .

and i decided to do something too !

i decided to ,

wash my mouth .

LOL ,

i decided to control all the vulgarities i say ! HAHA .

[i failed yesterday though ,]

pimple clearing .

i wonder how to clear it though ,

studying .

i'm semi-studying .

my dad is so pissed off with me ,

whenever he comes into the house he sees me using comp .

so he's so pissed and scold me and rants and go on nagging and .

till i get so pissed that i say , OI , ENOUGH .

he always says i never study ,

while i did .

i did sometimes .

but never mind .

i'm freaking out .

okay thats it ,

tag replies ;

IGNATIUS - HAHA , YALO .

Joanne - thanks , ^^ .

actually i already replied the people on top on msn and real life ,

so i'm just adding it on , for fun .

okay i seem so retarded .

thats it .

bye ,

Two sides

2009-09-24T20:15:00.002+08:00

The following post would be very personal , if you just don't understand .
then i'm sorry , i'm not gonna explain too , it's all sad stuff so , you could ignroe this if you want .
have a nice day then , bye .

.......................................................................................................

The Two sides , i show people , personally .
Day : Rainy .

I seem happy in this pic , i might not on the other side .
i seem like i'm living in two different people .

i think i'm just trying to "BE/ACT" positive ,
while deep inside , it's just .
just ,

ugly . i hate myself .

but i really don't like the feeling to show ,
show everyone that i'm sad .
today's soccer match was rather hilarius .
with ;

TRUMPETS versus PERCUSSION [ and haziq and hisyam ]

hahahahah , i love my section people .
as funny as always .
but there are always some incooperative ones . aww .

i think i got stabbed by invincible knifes and spikes countless times today ,
and it got worse .
even worse than before .

it seemed as if tears almost came out .
it just seemed .
thankfully it did'nt .

i'll elaborate further about why i keep get stabbed then ,

CASE NO. 1

It gets really hurting when "you" just don't borther replying my message .
I may be too sensitive , but it always hurts deep in the inside .
and i have no idea how to heal the wound , and just let it bleed awayyyy .
Your Ignorance , became pain .
Pain to the extent .
i won't elaborate much further then ,

CASE NO . 2

It gets even more hurting and even more worse [compared to CASE 1]when "She" lies .
"She" just keeps lying and lying .
I can't tolerate her lies anymore , but i don't feel like ignoring this person too .
Ah , people are just too , too , concerned about the face .
even though , "SHE" thinks that her words din't hurt me in any way ,
i still felt the pain , the . immense pain when ,
someone lies to you , and still smiles happily and laughing away .
like ; the person says she don't have any good friends in somewhere ,
then a few days later you randomly ask her some person's name and ,
she says it's her super good friend .

hah , i think my level of tolerance can't make it ,
but it somehow made it today , which links to case 3 ,

CASE 3

I was just trying to be funny , so that i won't sleep in class .
so i told a joke , which was so damn obvious and was not that related to the lesson though .
and like everyone was like laughing already .
but , "HE" , chose to stab me . I think he thinks that i don't mind .
but i laughed at myself , WHILE the others laughed at me too .

laughing , just trying to avoid , avoid much attention at me again .
it did hurt .
i thought he was the best , following by mrs heng .
but ended up ,
stabbing me .

CASE 4

I went tuition after games day today .
and it was hell .
i just had 10minutes to finish everything .
and the tuition teacher was just too fed-up for me as ,
she waited for me for an hour again because of band .

so she was so damn angry , and she stabbed me countless times .
She said i was noisy , talkative .
then added on with , 'go to the other teacher class la ! , i thought that time u say so good'
hahaha , my level of tolerance , really got better .

CASE 5

I remembered someone else other than MRS . C ,
telling me that "SIBEH" is actually cursing the other person's father to die .
and i just added it on to my sentences , and
i got caught and was stabbed again .
she said that i seemed to be an "kopitiam/ coffee shop" uncle .
using such , vulgarities + mixed language .

i laughed and i said being an ang moh / eurasian coffeeshop uncle also good ,
and actually i was just plainly stabbing myself .
and people just laughed .
sigh , i wonder why , i wonder how .
i get stabbed every moment and then .
and sometimes i don't even notice it .

Maybe one day , one fine day .
things would get better .
i won't get stabbed for a day .
"you/SHE" just treats me better or somehow .
I stay TRUELY happy .
& , i'll be satisfied .

i wonder when would that day come .

I may not be groaning or moaning in agony and
bleeding and going to die .
But thats only the physical part .

I keep getting stabbed , mentally and spiritually .
i wonder when , would this end .
it seems never ending .

Sometimes , maybe people don't mean to stab me intentionally ,
but i just get stabbed and stabbed and stabbed and till ,
i finally , burst .
just hope that , i won't burst infront of anyone then .

I got so many comments from people and some from myself already ,
i'm so desperately trying to improve .
but i still , suck .

I'm loud , X 100 %
noisy , X 99%
irritating ,
stupid ,
ugly ,
pimple-face ,
nerd look ,
noob in everything ,
gay ,
sissy ,
niangniangchiang ,
showoff ,
slacker in band ,
not attentive ,
Disgusting ,
Pathethic ,
Hopeless ,
Useless ,
Can't make it ,
No Guts ,
That thing very small ,
Balls very small ,
and what more ? you add on yourself then .
i wonder why ,
PEOPLE , would just start saying my balls & that thing is very small ?
did you ever seen it before ?
LIKE , HIM ,
i'm laughing at your VERY painful joke , cause i still respect you as a fucking cher .

and it really hurts .
you want to see it so desperately is it ?
don't be so foolish / innocent / naive that i always speak the truth .

i don't know whether it's an insult or a praise or whatever ,
to say that that thing and balls is very small !
i just hope ,
if people would soooooooooooooooooo love to comment about .
me , or whatever having some small that thing and balls .
then lets compare one day ,
see who's bigger ? , then you would be so surprized .
i wonder , whether you'll be surprized then .

and people think i'm gay .
i like girls .
when the hell would i like guys .
i'm not intrested , since they don't intrest me .

and people think i'm a sissy .
you think my voice very high is it?
i could make it very low , if just i wanted to .
do i walk like one ?
i wonder .
do i look like one ?
perhaps so then ,
OR , i seriously don't undertstand why people call me a sissy/niangniangchiang .

i know i'm ugly and stupid ,
no need for your stupid comments and just keep stabbing me ,
WHEN you , yourself think it is a joke and it's friggin funny .

I know i'm loud and noisy and irritating .
i wonder what could i really do .
i talk loudly , as always .
maybe i'm born like that ,
so , blame me for all you want then .

i'm noisy ,
if you just need ear muffs / ear plugs , just tell me .
i know , i'm noisy and irritating .
but you can have the choice not to care .
just tell me politely .

no need to tell me shut up right ,
it's rude , it hurts too , you know ?

I'm a slacker .
i know i always slack .
but do i really seem like i'm slacking , or do i really
want to slack .

i have such a irritating schedule and
i almost have something on everyday .
and i just don't have sufficient sleep yet .
and i just seem like a living zombie .

ah , i just hope things would get better .
thank you so much , for reading till here .
hope you'll understand what i'm feeling .

bye .

Sweet & Nice

2009-09-23T19:31:00.007+08:00

Hey peeps ,
i'm back with 20 pics today ! ,
hope you don't lag out when your trying to view my blog . ps if so .

whats on top !? ,
present lah , then what .
hahahahhahha , it's not a surprize anymore but who cares .
i haven't decided who to give the toberone and tim tam , either hans or waikit .
hahahahahha , but the cadbury DREAM goes to LEEHUATING

i hope i can really be very nice , and sweeet . HAHAHA ,
i really hope i can do that . though , i suck . aww .
yeah whatever ,
below are some of the MANY hari raya pics i took !
enjoy , hahaha . and some random ones too .

Deborah helping nazma throwing nuggets into the frying pan ,
cause they scared the oil !? [nazma took home econs LOL ,]
wonder why , HAHA .

some random photo of my jeans .

wanxuan seems to be posing for this ? , kellie/shishi looks as if

she's staring into space .

Ignatius making cards ! [ for the game lah ]

Gabriel's kissing pose ! [LOL]

wanxuan . nazma . deborah . HAHA , ps i forgot to tilt it .

nazma . deborah [ before wanxuan joined in !]

Some random candid pic again of wanxuan ! , she seems okay in this , LOL .

Ignatius making cards , gogo .

i din't know how i got this though , ps to gabriel eh .

seems as if he's shocked about something , i forgot what .

Nazma's ohmygod/ohmytian? face , deborah seems to notice my candid photoshoots already !
HAHAHA THATS WHY SHE SEEMS as if she was looking in the camera HAHA .

Kellie/shishi bored look , nazma scratching her head for an answer??

I just found the pillows' design not bad , right ? hahahaha .
the black thing below is my bag , and the person on top is glenna .

Deborah seemed to pose like this with the door , HHAHAHA .

All of them , [except those helping out in the kitchen ! ] seemed to pose ,

except glenna , HAHAH SEEMS BUSY EH .

While waiting for ignatius , gabriel and glenna at pionner mrt station ,

it's my first time there though , [ ok i admit i'm living under a rock ]

hahahahah , seems like changi airport .

so glassy * [someone gave me this word , i think it's ignatius , LOL .]

View of the blocks and the mrt and the busy traffic , HAHA .

I admit i was quite bored , HAHA .

Friday's sectional ! , they din't want to pose , aww .

okay thats all for the pictures ,

still got more , HAHAHAHAHA .

stay tuned eh .

okay have to go chiong e maths test tml !

and monday's the chemistry o level spa , omfg .

and i got parallax error for today's bio prac [ fake o level spa ]

*SPA = School Based Science Practical Assesment [ contributes to "O" levels eh .]

so don't play play .

HAHAHAHAH , LOL .

feel the stress and tension once again ,

i'm going back to study .

so might not blog as often hahahaha .

okay , time to say bye .

i hate to say so , but hahahah .

there's games day tml , super fun confirm guarentee chop .

will elaborate more about other details such as ;

Readers read without tagging . [ aww . ;( ]

Bloggers blog without blogging [ LOL , just some random rubbish ]

Selamat Hari Raya ! [with ignatius , gabriel , chloe , deborah , nazma , kellie , glenna , wanxuan and me lah of course , HAHAHA ]

Section Leader / Instrumental Course [ with JVCB . ]

okay ,

i just worry i get fined 50Cents if someone in my section never wear band badge ,

HAHA CHEY , nvm one lah . hhahahahahha i'm not that petty .

50cents only mah , nvm loh .

hahaha LOL , HAVEN'T HAPPENED YET THOUGH .

by the way ...

i had a very odd and weird dream yesterday night .

may not elaborate it , hahahahahha . don't feel like sharing too much details eh ?

tag replies ;

Zuhao - sorry lah , entertainment purposes ok , HAHA CHEY PS ;( . suddenly haha suddenly scold me , you're damn odd mannnn .

okay we played xiao niao . or xiao ying or some bird crappy shit .

in English it's called asuka .

some jap china song .

i wondered whether is MRS C went to china to bought it or

hahahahh , low price cheap bargains !

GOGO

LOL ,

just some random stuff .

samuel changed specs , and it looks okay .

i think so , hahaahah . wait till they see mine too . LOL ,

nono , i'm staying with my white , unless i want go study or whtever .

see my display picture and you'll understand . [ ps if zilian , lol wtf .]

okay thats all , have a nice day .

and , goodBYE ! @

P.S : by the way , i feel super odd about willy's nick about me and someone else about the .

GIRLY-MAN and the MANLY-GIRL thing . like so odd , but even though they saying me , i wonder why i laugh at myself too . hahahaha how odd can i be man . okay bye !

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-20T23:02:00.006+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE ,
yeah was very happy today at nazma's house
today rocks . but it sucks somehow too
will continue if i have the time tomorrow , at ignatius house .

okay the picture on top is just showing off that i did a 7 page CHINESE ,
i repeat , CHINESE essay okay heheheehh .
pro right , lol .
[THANKS TO SHILIN , for helping me fill in words , LOL . ]
thanks to kevin for the paper though ! and my smart brain for thinking , LOL WTF .
today was very happy , getting entertained by shilin on the way , ahahahhaha
and someone just din't borther to reply my msg , awww .

by the way ,

paiseh if i just ripped it from your blog ! [ to huating ]
hahahaha but ;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH , 15TH YEARS OLD LE ! [ one day late :X]

i seriously forgot her birthday till one day later ,
felt so bad , lol aww .
okay whatever .
now i owe quite a sum of people presents already .
hahahahahaha , okay have to go . tml early need go study with people liao !

will upload more stuff & elaborate more about today
plus change of display pic and another truckload of pictures + 1 more video !

okay got to go sleep liao ,
tag replies ;

Zuhao - lol .

add on : i was shocked hahahahah , pleasantly , i din't know SANDY
ripped a pic out of my blog and printed it out untill zuhao told me .
aiyo tag at least lah ! , aiyer all these annoymous readers == .

okay have fun and ,
GOOD NIGHT !
BYE @ =D .

Fed + Up

2009-09-16T20:10:00.003+08:00

Hey ,
this guy is desperate for me to congratulate him LOL WTH .
hahahaha , ok not .
i'm fed up by the friggin blogger as i moved out from the page and i had to repost !
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . HELL .

ok lets not make it affect my mood of typing nonsense even though ,
i'm already fed up .

okay by the way ;

CONGRATULATIONS TO LOUUUUUZUUUUUHAO @ ,
for coming back to TRUMPET SECTION !
after like 99999999 million tries [lol like wtf?]
just joking .

ya , okay now for the actual post for the day .

[i took this myself though , near waikit's house ball court .]
Even though life's tough ,
i'll get over it .
i just din't get that people were actually scolding me behind their backs .
scolding me indirectly .
and i am just so stupid not to get it .
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww .

but seriously these people could cheer me up ,
by making damn funny things such as ...

okay , his face expression definetely 100% fits my mood ,
have a good laugh , HAHAHA FREE JOKE PICTURES LOL HAHAHAHA .
he's fed up with me taking pictures of him already HAHAHA .
[copyright gaoxian & waikit gang HAHAHAHA]

this was an old pic ,
HAHAHAHAHA , seems like kevin's so short and the ball thing is so tall right .
i hope to dunk .
HAHAHAHAH , but i can't aww .

lol just being so random .
today band was fun cause we tried new songs and i love my solo .
okay i'm going to keep it short .
bye @ .

Equilibrium

2009-09-12T20:07:00.002+08:00

HEY ,
this was taken so damn long ago , HAHA on 198 to jp .
lol , what they doing ? i also not sure .
seems like looking at something , but they calling someone i think HAHA .

so damn candid ,
and i was shocked that waikit read my blog without tagging .
hans also .
WHAT THE HELL .

and blogger still can't upload pics ,
the trouble is i have to go photobucket then come here again ,
how troublesome HAHA .

and i haven't finish my hwk ,
i'm doommeeeed .
oh no .

yes , my dad suggested we go bangkok . hohohoh .
HAHAHAHA .
ok i seem so stupid .

okay thats it , short and sweet .

tag replies ;
xueling - u then ah , lame . =.=

thats all !
tag thanks , heh . BYE !

HANS BIRTHDAY .

2009-09-09T18:13:00.004+08:00

HEY PEEPS , YOU KNOW .
blogger cannot upload pictures agian ,
but i did make the effort to use photobucket .
HAHAAH , IT'S
HANS CHRISTIAN LEONADI or
HCL - HYDROCHLORIC ACID or
HIGHER MOTHER TONGUE [okok , joking :D]
'S BIRTHDAY YOU KNOW .

oops , i haven't got him a present ,
i haven't got waikit a present too ! ,
HIS BIRTHDAY PASSED NOT LONG AGO TOO ! HAHAHAHA ,
i'll make a special post for waikit the next post , HAHAA .
see i so damn good .

hahahahaha , it looks hillarius though the pic , but i only had this
and a few others clear shots of him HAHA .
there's band tml ! woohoo .

and i only finished 2 chapters + 1 chapter MCQ of TYS , out of the 14 .
dead man . still got chinese and Social Studies hwk .
what to do !

BO BIAN ALRD .
lets start tearing all the homework .

lol , siao already .
by the way ! , sorry kaiwen ! , HAHA . i will solve the problem somehow .
i deleted the post , very sorry eh . HAHA .
okay , time to slack .
have fun people ! BYE ! :D

tag replies ;

Xueling - hanahana , wth . HAHHAHA , sometimes those song more intresting than what we play now mah , bo bian .

Kaiwen - Sorry , =D .

Zuhao - hahaha , thanks =D .

Shilin! - replied , HOHOHOH .
thats all , see ya .
BYE !

HEH , FINALLY .

2009-09-07T10:53:00.002+08:00

hey peeps ! ,
blogger can upload pics alrd , would upload vid soon .
look at the pic abv , during the start of the SL course thingy .
hahahahah , there's only 1 person posting , LOOK CAREFULLY ,
HEH .

it's shilin ! , HAHAHAH LOL .
okay i don't know what's fathiah doing . oops == , din't mean it HAHA ,
the othes don't know doing what also .
the place we went damn nice ok .

i'll upload more stuff when i have the time , about the SL course and thingy .
hahahahahahah , so stay tuned ! ,
=D , i hope i can go seoul garden tml .
hohoh , bye !

Dumbfounded

2009-09-06T12:02:00.003+08:00

okay , i admit i'm stupid .
read the post below and read this post and you'll understand ==
i din't copy and paste the code FULLY ,
i copy part of the code only LOL .

thats why cannot see the posts , LOL WTF .
i am seriously dumb . =D .
going to study on monday and tuesday and ball ! , WOOHOO .
jp libary =D .
yay , LOL .

ok , off to physics hwk ,
have fun , BYE .

damn it .

2009-09-06T11:57:00.004+08:00

i changed my song peeps .
hope you like it .
classic =D .

OKAY , now i bet u can't read this
cause don't know why , my posts cannot be shown , since i changed song .
sucks , someone save me
HAHA .

okay thats it ,
off to chiong physics hwk [i din't do any ytd ]

okay ! tag replies ;

elena - still got EOY ! HAHA .
zuhao - good that you agree with me , hahahaha , f horn is neither clever or dumb , it doesn't have a brain , AHAHAHA .

thats all , BYE .

Reduced to Dust .

2009-09-05T10:16:00.002+08:00

this sucks ,
i can't upload pictures / videos .
& i found out i was noisy yesterday . again , how sad .

gotten back results ,
not that good though i was happy for physics test .
A1 leh @ , hohoh .
i got myself 3 B3s only .
awww .
i hope i'm not the last for my class .

yesterday's tuition seemed to end fast , no idea why ,
maybe it's not that plain , more intresting?
& i ate ice cream with hans and deborah at arnd 11pm . LOL ,

okay . i have tons of physics hwk .
almost the whole 10-years series book .
gosh , i think i better do them now .
bye .

Fake .

2009-09-03T20:32:00.003+08:00

Blogger still can't upload pictures , i dnnoe how , damn it .
i found out smth .

today ,
i found out i could do 20+ pumpings .
i found out i am too noisy .
i found out i suck as an sl .
i found out it's wrong to put ur scores under the chair .
i found out it's wrong to stand during band .
i found out i keep fidgeting .
i found out mrs C always scolds me .

this is getting worse .
"can you please keep quiet for a while , just a minute ?"
aww .
i spent some time in maths remidial today .

then i went off straight to band .
and then rushed up to get ready and teach my juniors .
and how wonderful , i clap and talk till i got sore throat .

then i kept clearing my throat during band .
how pathethic .

and after that , i went for drills .
standard , we did the same old stuff .
then went back to band room .
I had to do punishments ! , big deal .

so i did those 20+ pumpings , since i was fidgeting .
i couldn't blame anyone right , it's surely my fault .
but maybe , i was just that unlucky to be caught unlike other bandmates .
but whatever . it's already over .

then i got all the shut up comments .
not only that , and the sit down comments .
i was wondering who they were shouting at at first ,
and ended up finding out that it's me .

I , was then GIVING OUT SCORES
and also putting my big score collection under the chair .
BUT , the problem was . my junior was sitting on the chair , she was a girl .
so i asked her to stand up a while , so i could put it in .
then she din't understand wtf i was trying to mean ,
AND THEN

all those shut up lah , sit down lah all came .
WOW , WAS I EVEN MAKING A BIG HOO HAH THERE .
then i just scolded vulgarities . aww , i can't swap it on time with chicken or nugget .
how pathethic can i get .

and i also found out .
True friends console each other ,
"Friends" just stick when they're happy together .
i finally understood ! , HAHAHA .

today milk din't talk to me , for no whatever reason i have no idea why .
maybe the my world is getting darker and darker ,
to nothingness .
aww .

seriously , she ignored me for the whole band prac .
no idea why .
i don't feel like knowing why either .
when i get sway , i get really sway .
sway to the extent .

was just wondering why ,
people could politely say "BYE" to me .
when they just called me to shut up .
i wonder , i ponder .

what the hell are they trying to do
play ah ? , scold liao then act friendly
wtf man . this sucks .
i thought there was playing of ,
"Where never lark nor eagle flew" today .
and ended up with a sectional , and i lost my voice little bit .
and got commented like omg .
hahahah . if tomorrow's going to be somehow like that .

I'm officialy going to PONTANG band tml .
i'm making it official .
after the 1hr or smth , i don't give a damn anymore .
completely wasting time doing absolutely like nothing and losing your voice .
it gets so boring , even with the talking nowadays .

now it gets worse , bored and stupid .
we don't get to play nicer songs THAN , "Imagine" or "Disco Lives"
and we keep playing it
OVER , AND OVER , AND OVER , AND OVER .
and it seems like forever .

i miss the old days ,
we kept changing , eres tu , pirates of the carribean , march beyond the critical point , FLYING HIGH * , olympic spirit , final countdown and all those majulah singapura and jurongville school song sessions
at the concoss/foyer .

now it gets so dull .
hopes it gets better .
hope my life at band , would be better .

but i don't mind already .
=D , i get happy easily too .
i went to download 6 death metal songs today !
i'm going to play all of them tml again and again .
when i get sad i just play them again and again .

hahahahahahah , i seem so perverted .
ahahahahhaha , okay the end .

tag replies ;
huating - boom what sia , u ah , sigh .
edwina - LOL , not bad what ;( . HAHAHAHA ,
zuhao - double tag ? , LOL .
huating - hahahaha .
xueling - where got lorh , wth man .
powerpuffgal - hahahah , qiwen , u are lame .
zuhao - thanks . =D .

the end .

2009-09-01T18:31:00.002+08:00

HEY PEOPLE , I UPLOADED A VIDEO U KNOW @ , LIKE ?!?!!? , OMFG .
=D , CHEY , no lah . just borthered to upload stuff from phone >> comp today .
how bored can i get ? , LOL . i was late for ball today . i overslept .
awwww , then i missed the whole thing . like wtf . oh no ,

i'm so sorry to kevin and qiwen though . made me feel bad =D .
HAHAAHAHA , CAUSE I MADE THEM WAIT 2 HRS .

LOL , so i din't mac today .
so damn bored trapped at home .
but i brought back my physics and biology books to study
but i just din't feel like studying . aww .

so i played dota today , as usual it was boring .
but i think i feel like sleeping alrd . actually i wanted to post pictures too .
but i think video enough , pictures can wait . =D .

i'm having more and more pimples .
this sucks man . i'm already so ugly why make me uglier

so random .
and i dnnoe why hor , i press space one time = 2 times .
and if i have to type in this way , i have to press shift enter , how difficult .
sucks man .

i have class party pics ! , our class won another don't know what prize again
like LOL ,

btw from the quote i received from the sms ,
"FABULOUS AND ATTRACTIVE PRIZES TO BE WON!"
and i got a small tiny mentos which everyone also got one!
but seriously

the organisers did put lots of effort YES !
THANKS AH @ , WHATEVER IT IS ! =D .
-you know who le bah , everytime org stuff one .

YOU KNOW !
i can play to zanarkand on guitar ! [looking score super slow keep breaking] THOUGH .
HAHAHAHAHAH , PRO RIGHT .
okay .

i'm getting so bored .
i got simply nothing to do but to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep .
so , i decided to make stuff COLOURFUL !

LOL , SEE I BORTHERED TO CHANGE COLOUR FOR EVERY LETTER .
the video is taking forever to upload . aww .
holidays are coming , woohoo , time to get bored again .
no lah . whatever .

was so happy yesterday morning and afternoon ,
yet so depressed at night .
i believe it's mood swings .

i don't know , LOL .
i get so depressed over some small thing .
what the hell is wrong with me man .

but i was so happy yesterday , cause i was somehow "UNBORED"
for almost the whole day yesterday ! , WOOHOO &
it's not computer games or whatever !
HAHAHAHAHA .

why would i get so happy about these kind of stuff right
i was supposed to go out today .
and i slept like a pig .
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww .

YES , I TWISTED ALL THE PICTURES TO THE CORRECT ANGLE .
woohoo .
LOL ,
if the video just don't finish i'm continuing to talk crap .

TOMORROW'S BAND ! ,
WOHOO . lol , sec 3 only == ,
=D , and i have to bring my friggin instrument to sch how , DRAG IT ON THE FLOOR .
no lah , later spoil i die oh no .

i din't went back to pri sch ytd ,
since i already knew the outcome , we were already barred from going in last year .
and there's nothing much inside to retrive any more memories , except
my ex-chinese teacher , HAHAHA , WONDER whether he's there anot also .

my fringe is still so short
and my hair is still that sucky .
and i still worry that the teacher is going to catch me tomorrow .
[since they say there's a SUPER BIG CATCHING HAIR , ATTIRE & SHOE CARNIVAL]

lol , warn us like wth man .
during the extremely boring assembly for teacher's day .
nothing was intresting that day during the assembly i find ,
almost slept , but woke up .
i wanted to sleep though .
thanks to some bastards sitting on my left , seriously annoying .

and they think that doing that is very cool ,
i barely remember them , they seem to be from my pri sch .
i sucked when i was pri 1-3 i think .
always went to the last few classes .
then ended up recognising some baskets on the left .

disiao till cannot sleep , wtf man .
so inconsiderate , if is teacher then i don't mind .
LOL* ,

but i was seriously tired that day , aww .
must wake up at like 5+ and reach sch at 6.30 .
HEHEHEH , heng kevin waited for me with all his equipment .
i just had to bring my pedal , some cables hahahaha . woohoo .
not that heavy as his @ .
then i saw waikit too , how coincidental

he took 99 , kevin took 198 .
i came 1 min after , AWW .
i was last again .
oh no , i found out i seem to always make people think that i am late .
OHNOOO .

DEON'S Birthday was yesterday , anyone knew ?
lol , i think a lot , but yah , happy birthday .
i seem to notice lots of people birthday's somehow ,
not through facebook alerts though , i wonder .
hahahahaha , how pro i am .

i have completely no idea what happened after the SL course & instrumental thing ,
when we went to JP to get stuffs
NO IDEA WTF HAPPENED LOL ,
then i just followed kaiwen and wondered where was the rest .
LOL , oh no . i am a sheep . == , i follow people , i don't make decisions ^^ .

MY GOD , THE FRIGGIN VIDEO .
take so damnnnn long , okay i will try to cut down ,
how much words i write , LOL .

i give up on uploading the video , i will put it on another day ,
3hrs still haven't finish , go hell blogger . zzzzzzzzzz .

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE , =D BYE .

hey ! , random .

2009-08-25T17:17:00.002+08:00

hello people .
so random here .

i don't know what to blog .
lets talk crap .

you know , there's 2 tests tml , and i haven't study ! , GG .
HAHA die .
i'm so worried for my friggin maths test .
cause everyone get so high , only me =.= , confirmed failure ! , SUMMORE
I SURE FAIL TILL VERY CHAM , i predict .

die liao .

oh ya , i was practicing guitar just now .
YOU KNOW ! ,
i plan to perform for teacher's day at 3A .
LOL ,
seems like crap , but who cares ^^ ,
arfian said okay , lol .

the song is very random .
i think u all know alrd .
since i shout and scream the word everyday in class
LEKUASIMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII , LOL .
-mr brown remix .

nice , definetely .

today was dead boring .
and it sucked since the morning .
semi-slept during chemistry .
i missed out the 1st lesson of acids&bases .
die . confirm die , i don't understand wtf she saying .

and i don't know why , i think i must highlight this point .
I cut my hair once a week .
not i wanted to , but for 2 weeks arld liddat ,
now the 3rd week monday kena alrd wtf .
CUT SO MANY TIMES , think very cheap ah ?
like wtf .

so i decided , is either i let my sis use scissors cut ,
or i give that cher cut .
sigh , and she says i don't borther combing my hair .
i did do something , she just din't borther to notice .

i got do my fringe somehow .
and the spikes somehow ,
and the back i make very flat ,

SO I DID DO SMTH ,
but i din't use a comb .
WHATS THE BIG DEAL MAN .
=.= , suan me 3 times in a day alrd .
just because of

COMB .
time at school really can sometimes get very pathethic .
& , i find that . i have no idea why .
1 junior of mine , did thought i was talking to myself .
then sit beside me nearby one also thought i talking to myself .

BUT IN FACT I WAS continuously talking to someone .
LOL , AND i talk to kevin sometimes , people think i talking to myself .
LIKE WTF , i won't talk to myself .
when i'm in class , i won't talk to myself .
why people think i talk to myself ?! LOL .

boston brass thing was superb .
haha , ownage , all the people so damn pro ,
only me so damn nub . =D .

but mr tan did treat me & zuhao drink ice milo & taxi . HAHA ,
shiok . , lol actually ok .

i found out ,
i din't do my chinese hwk , LOL .
and i din't do maths , which is marked asignment , 5%
don't know where's my EL PAPER , on elephants ,
which is also 5% of EL zzz
kns , die .

what to do man .
smsed milk today .
milk say she get 25 .
sigh , i think i get 5 also hard this test .
how dissapointing .

whatever .
have fun ! , BYE .
P.S : do borther go check lekuasimi/what do you see vid , the song's nice . haha , & i like our going to be class TEE design . thank Yik wai though . =D .

tag replies ,
SHILIN - good . very good . HAHAHAHAHA A ,
Herminene \m/ - heheh , mrs C would kill both of us then -.- , HAHA !
Biglz - lol , crap .
HUATING - lol , BOOM WHAT ?! baozha . lol @ ,

thats it , have a NICE day , bye .

HEY PEOPLE , SHOCKING NEWS ,

2009-08-20T19:14:00.002+08:00

HEY , SHOCKING NEWS YEAH , AHAHHAAH .

I , hans , kevin and kaiwen most probably performing for prom night this year !
HAHAHAHAHA , so random , mr tan jj call us go !

HAHAAHHAHAHA , YAY . FREE FOOD , shiok !

^^ , HAHA .

today band got drils , lol .
& i'm gonna fail my maths test today , how sad . 1/30 perhaps , zzz .
gone case .

yeah , btw ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAMUEL CHUA WEN KANG , for his 15th birthday tomorrow !
HAHAHAHA , lol , good right me .

okay thats the shocking news people , JY ALL FOR YOUR UPCOMING O'S AND N'S !
jy , hahahahah , kk bye bye ! =D .

LOL , wth happened to blogger .

2009-08-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

hey people !
i'm finally blogging for once again using my sister's lappy .
LOL , i just felt really bored .

blogger changed , and cannot upload pics or smth , lol !

i didn't go school today .
i got a little headache and stomachache .
i hope i can follow up .

i was so bored toda , i finally went to do my maths assesment book that i bought lol .
then i went to play maple . LOL . like why am i playing it again right !?

i didn't went sch today , so i didn't hand up the mr goh's chinese hwk . i'm like so dead . i promised monday i'll give him . i done it on sunday , lol .

i went to cut my hair yesterday .
maybe this time it's better , but my fringe is getting shorter and shorter .
lol like wth .
wth = shen me de di yu .
hahahahahaha ,

most probably going sch tml .
i didn't went to get an mc today , so dead .
but i was really happy ,
as kevin smsed me why i din't come sch today lol .
and weichin noticed that i wasn't at sch today .

others probably din't borther to care .

i have a big problem .
lol , i can't seem to get all my section people to go for the boston brass enrichment thing , it's free . like wtf .

i had many solutions ! , i even thought of sending them home personally or smth , but if the sec 2's miss this like , how are they going to do SYF . hahahaha , how to make me proud .

LOL , i have no idea but i lost 1 potential sec 2 alrd , now left 3 . later might lose one more , all went french horn . how cruel teachers can be , no lah .

i'm happy that i'm going for the SL course . no idea whts going to happen , but heard is from japan people teach one ^^ . woah shiok ,
then boston brass is ang moh one , woah fusion .

i miss eating the hokkien mee i ate just now .still feeling damn hungry . zzz ,

i still have to prepare a stupid parents letter before i sleep , just in case i'll be late tml , i will sleep quite early today .

oh ya , i forgot smth .
band graduation day ! ,
hope everyone enjoyed the so called concert we had hahahahaha .
thanks for all your nice comments .
but i was just shocked how did ahmad(sec 3) found out that i sang !?

LOL , super random .
he also loves to sing .
maybe he's the next singapore idol ! lol ,
i saw the new series nowadays , got one look so scary . then sing imagine .
like so damn lol .

hahahaha , okay get ready to see someone which went to cut his hair because of Ali.... , hahahahaha and cut like omg . lol .

tag replies ,

huating - hahahaha , =D . so many tags to reply eh ! hahaha , so free ah you .

chloe - thanks , hope you enjoyed the show . lol .

xueling - yeah , lol . hahahah , ya lor like wtf right .

huating - happy right ! haha ,

EELIN - saw it ! , hahahaha welcome eh ! , ^^ .

ZUHAO - hahaha , thanks eh , yeah very busy , i'm just worrying whether i'll fail lots of subjects recently yah .

things should get better soon .
i have a positive mindset ! lol wtf .
thanks for reading this far , have a nice day !

BYE BYE ! =D .

Moody ,

2009-08-01T11:59:00.000+08:00

oh damn , you can't post pictures for blogger again , how frustrating , fucking piece of shit .
i have seriosly no mood , and i don't seem to understand , does moody means no mood .
i don't understand .

what happened ?
it was such a happy day .
we were starting to reherse for the grad thing ,
then after that .
after that , i had mini-band practice .

so i lent hans my E guit and amp ,
then after that , i heard loud crappy sounds .
i have no idea who did that , i thought kaiwen was doing it so i din't mind .
then after that i thought it wasn't my stuff .

till i saw , someone , lets not mention
person J ,
J went to play my guitar and amp .
and spammed it 10 10 10 10 , i think ?
i compiled some stories .
i have completely no idea which one is trure which's not .

haha , i can't blame anyone right .
i can only blame myself , for being that dumb and that foolish
not to keep an eye on my guitar , trusting it to someone , who threw it there .

and THANKS TO J .
haha , my amp went mad .
my guitar full of scratches .

i have no idea what to say .
i don't know what to say too .
i don't know whether anyone can understand what i'm trying to say .

i happily brought it there , happily smiled at everyone .
and happily they spoilt my stuff .
happily ever after .
it just keep happening to me .

my stuff spoils one after another ,
and i still don't learn my lesson .
sometimes , i think i really learnt my lesson .
seriously i feel like crying .
i feel as if i was dumb enough to lent it to H ,

but all i can do ,
is to blame myself , and myself , and myself again .
maybe i'm procrastinating , why din't i keep it within my sight .
i carried my stuffs there , and
came back with spoilt stuff .

now my guitar is absolutely beautiful with scratches .
i have no idea what to say .
i think i won't have mood for the few days after it .
definetly no mood .

i did control my tears .
i did share my story .
i did cry .

i'm still so childish .
and i still don't know how to think .
i still don't know how to make correct decisions at the right time ,

i feel i'm still like a kid .
i feel pathethic .
what even worse happened ?
i was so sad after the thing happened .
then i went to clean up the mess , and i went to keep my trumpet .
then after that ,
after that , ...

i opened the cupboard and i wacked a junior's head .
then the person was like crying all the way .
oh no , now i'm playing the bad guy again .
WHY am i always playing the bad guy .
i don't understand ,
then i went to say sorry .

it seemed useless .
i still felt bad .
even worse .
now is worse than bad .
my stuffs spoilt , i play the bad guy role .
then after my repeatedly apologizes ,
the person felt i was naggy .
oh fuck .
fuck it .

then i had no idea what to say anymore
seriously no idea ,
i find myself very sucky .
i'm very traditional .
why do i say sorry , and keep repeating it ?
i know it's my fault .
and i'm still nagging over it .

now i don't know what to say ,
i still have no idea who's the culprit ,
maybe i'm wrong about who's the person .
and i think i should keep it all to myself again right .
you see , it's my wrong .
it's all my wrong .

if i went around complaining ,
everyone would hate me again ,
everyone would dislike me .
it's always my wrong , i don't understand .

some people just don't understand ,
it's not i'm naggy or whatever , give a straighter reply ?
it's not i'm selfish or whatever , take care of my things better ?

you din't want to lend me your stuffs that day ,
even though i politely asked around 3 times , just to get it ,
and i failed ,
but nothing happened to yours .

you din't ASK me to lend my stuffs yesterday ,
you just din't borther , like the thing was yours ,
and i know ,
since it wasn't yours , spoil also nevermind , have fun can liao .
and , indeed , it spoilt .
it went mad .

and i'm still grudging over it ,
i can't get over it ,
maybe it's life , i just have to push it all to me .
i already made some people feel bad , just because of my stupid behaviour ,
and i asked some peoeple , not in a nice tone about the matter too ,
i'm sorry .

sometimes i feel that i grow too fast , i miss the past .
now i hope i could grow fast in the mindset ,
then i'll learn what's right what's wrong .
and then nothing like this would happen ever again ,
and all the wrong would be pushed to me again .

forget it .

but i must really thank a few people ,
HUATING - for your tissues , and console ,
HERMIONE - for your words ,
KEVIN - for talking to me about it ,
HAZIQ - for listening ,
DEON - for patting on my back .
JASON - for not minding me scolding him vulgar .
HANS - for being that understanding .
and others for providing me parts and parts of the story .

i must really thank jason , i thought he sucked ,
but he very nice ,
he actually din't mind my crap ,
cause he could see what i was going through ,
and hans , for that sms , and being that understanding to what happened .

maybe things wasn't that bad .
even though i'm weeping behind the scenes ,
i should have the sterotype that people thought of me ,
i shouldn't be sad right .
but it might take some days .
i have no idea when would it end ,

i hope i could be happy on the day of graduation ,
so that , ...
never mind ,
i'm being so naggy .

maybe , blogging really does help relieve sadness .
but i'm still melancholic .
whatever .

thanks , for all the tags .
i'm really happy about that .
and i got 10/20 for my physics test ,
i got last for it , and i did study
pathethic .
i'm pathethic .
...

thats it .
the end ,

shy shy girl ,

2009-07-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

lol i'm bleeding from near my eyes , wtf .
hope it will heal up and patch up soon .
i'm friggin busy , so never blog often okay . ps ,
have to go ! , there's band today , yay finally got the never lark and crap .
hahahahah okay BYE BYE .

shy shy girl ,

2009-07-23T21:35:00.001+08:00

Lonely

2009-07-14T13:56:00.002+08:00

seriously , i feel friggin lonely at class .
especially today
today sucked at school , totally suckedddddddd .

sat there and had just homework , classwork and then
nothing else except i talk to the wall
i shouted to the wall , nothing came back ! , lol .
i felt like i'm transparent ,
seriously damn transparent .

no one cares what i say , what i do .
no one ones to talk .
so i made friends with the guy behind me ,
and he did borther to give me some replies , hah
still as bored as ever

the person infront doesn't talk to me ,
the person beside me is the wall ,
the person beside me is a guy , which talks to me and now
all of a sudden hates me like don't know what .
the person diagonal to me is very busy and have no time to talk .

so?
i tried communicating 3 tables apart ,
one pointed middle finger at me , i don't know is joke or what ,
whatever .
others all just treated me as transparent .
but at least gabriel and vanessa did notice lol ,

suddenly i was talking to the wall ,
???
how lonely .

at recess , finally got people to talk ,
released all my boredness ,
and then went back to my boredom .
study , read , sian , sleep . talk to the wall .
wow ?

so i went to try to joke with further apart people , none cared .
i tried giving suggestions to the cher ,
she didn't borther .
i tried talking to everyone .
no one borthers except for a few .

after that , i went into sleeping ,
then the cher not happy already , since I somehow din't gave any suggestions .
then it became so damnnnnnnnnn hopeless with people giving out
ridiculous ideas ( sorry if wrong spelling)

i feel pathethic ,
it's getting so hard to just borrow a stupid maths textbook ?
when the person don't even need it , cannot even lend .

then now i have no one to follow me go home ?
and then i felt so bored waiting for the dumb 198 .
and then junxian came to say hi , then talk a while , went off .
then i waited and waited and waited .
pull my hair , stare at the glass ,stare at blank space .
howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww boring .

when i was on the bus , i thought over it ,
why suddenly everyone like that ,
all of a sudden i'm lonely like hell .
maybe i was already lonely , just that i din't notice .
sigh , this situation is getting pathetic .

just hope that someone could make me go to some place ,
not that lonely ,
or just those people return to their past ,
or i'm just too bored .
i think tomorrow in class i'm just going to shut up and stare at the wall again .
how pathethic .

i think i ask for people for help also useless ,
consolation is useless too .
cause i'm just lonely , alone sitting at that corner ,
talking to people whereby people think i'm talking to the wall .
maybe i should seriously try talking to the wall ,
maybe it will reply .

i can't believe i shout so loud , the cher still cannot hear wtf i'm suggesting .
sigh , i have nothing else to say .

tag replies ,
shilin - relinked , thanks for informing :)

thats all , bye diary .

Attitudes ,

2009-07-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

seriously ,
do i have a bad attitude ,
i get angry super easily .
when i'm not angry , people will say i'm angry .
okay this sucks , i'm not the "old" gaoxian anymore ,

why the hell will i get angry ,
when i'm not even angry .
how hillarius .

btw , some changes , updated stuff
hahahahah , bye .

TAG REPLIES .
IMRAN - heheh , relinked , welcome ! hahaha
XUELING - lol ,
ZUHAO - hahahhah , famous what
HUATING - got lor ! , hahahaha .
CHLOE - yeah thanks , hahaha

okay thats all , bye .

Unfriendly

2009-07-08T17:13:00.002+08:00

HEY ,
you know !

who's this guy here , hahaha ,
actually there's no band for sometime already .
how boring ,

how random , he suddenly appear on my blog right , hahaha
i'm stressed ,
tomorrow's gonna be English oral .
and also Bio presentation ,
and also my deadline for my long overdue chinese hwk ,
Chinese Test "open book , but i lost the book "

how dead i am ,
gosh .

i also don't know what to do ,
chiong , hahaha
whatever , i'm going popular later soon to get that dumb book .
waste $$$$ ,

whatever

and also , nowadays the sch using shooting thermometer !
no need pay $1 , ahhahaha , am i advertising hahaha
lol , okay whatever

saturday got some stupid home based learning ,
all also need do maths , aiyo cham
i think i better go do my homework ,
and add on .
i think hua ting wanted me to highlight this LOL ,
GAOXIAN & HUATING are good friends you know !

HAHAHA OK , sounds crappy .
highlighted le ah , hahahahah
okay whatever .
don't think too deep .

TAG REPLIES ,
KH - thanks , hahaha reminders for what nice songs , LOL !
ZUHAO - hahaha , whatever ! LOL , no mould la , hahaha
KRISTINE - heheh , yeah nice nice , hahaha thanks eh ! ^^

okay thats all for the day ,
have a nice day ,
i hope there's ball tomorrow , how boring
monday play only zzzzzzz , whatever
okay bye ! HAHAHAHAHA =D

Adenosine Triphosphate

2009-07-04T13:29:00.003+08:00

OKAY ,

there's just no bloody picture coming out !
damn it .
whatever .

what the hell is the title ?
it's abt ADT or smth liddat , some energy used by living things ,
learnt from bio , i think wrong spelling . wth

i'm sorry i din't blog .
i can't find the time .
can you believe that i lost parts of my homework and need to find them ,
and get them back

summore is holiday hwk .
i'm dieing in maths .
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
hell .

i'm going crazy .
i still owe all my hwks .
and i'm late already .
die .
not i don't want to , zuhao .
is really no time , you try lah .
got tons and tons of hwk still blog ,
actually i still got lots , just blogged .

whatever ,
and i din't meet any sec 2 this week ,
rarely lol . no idea why though ,
enrichment maybe .

and band might be cancelled for the next week too !
stupid H1N1
i almost kena fever and sent back home too .
kns .

i miss band ,
and my tpt is rotting at home .
and my legs got a little ache .
not that bad .

thanks to the 2.4km run at sch ,
very dumb .
run run run run like hell , 4 rounds .
summore my hair like kns when i run ,
maybe already kns even if i don't run but , whatever .

ivan say got people see leh ! , kns .
i'm so bored .

and i'm so hurt by my some teacher's the words lah .
so what if i get D7 for a maths .
so whatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt !
i'm not talking about sch , i'm saying tuition .
i know i dropped tremendously lah .
but no need suan me right ,

there's a VERY CLEAR GAP between
good students and bad students ,
cleverer students , and students which are slightly not that bright .

............................................
i don't know how to think ?
i know i'm noob ,
but at least i still got your circle formulae correct ,
(x-a)square + (x-b)square = r square

and i finished the whole paper even quicker without much mistakes than leon .
which is a miricle .
so i'm dumb .

and then i have no idea whats wrong with my physics teacher too ,
she says i'm a slacker .
why ? i have to reply people's msg during tuition .
but i understand what the hell your saying seriously .
cause i learnt it before !
so i recap .
i din't slack at all .
judge someone when he smsing people or people sms him .

hahaha , then she kept shooting the same thing about
university , my good students from ******************** ,
and also my friend beside me how good how good la ,
she how good he how good .
never once it came before to me ,
LISTEN CLEARLY HOR GAOXIAN !

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .
when wasn't i not listening .
it's tough .
maybe i'm only happy in my english tuition .
we laugh , we talk , we do EL .
others , like a torturing lesson .
how hopeless .

and hans got quarrentined again and again ,
never go tuition also , then i went back home alone then .
i don't know how to explain .

it's like when you concentrate on one subject ,
the others will get fail .
and the subject will improve like siao .
hahaha , so now i fail all my maths .
and i managed to pass all my science .
and it's not about passing .
i just can't pass in my class .

i feel pathethic .
i don't know maybe my class people too clever .
i can't even do a simple maths question .
sigh .

i still have a positive mindset .
cause i know , one day .
one day , i'll score , i'll soar .

hahaha , happy waiting to me then .
off to finish my big humungous truckload of homeworks .
have a nice day ,
BYE ,

tag replies ,
CHUNLIN - relinked , haha .
Xueling - yaya , whatever ! =P
Huating - hahaha ! , of course highlight lah .
ZANY - hahah ! yah , cute , i agree ^^ .
ZUHAO - this week no band , because h1n1 , yeah i hate h1n1 too , i do update , i don't have the time .
CHLOE - okay , haha . thanks eh !
ZUHAO - please understand , =D .
CAROLINE - hahah , welcome ! , [even though i'm damn late] HAHA , =D .

thats it .
have a nice day ! ,
BYE !

P.S = currently my handphone no batt , might take sometime to reply , btw i'm going BBQ today , so might not charge on time , will reply any msg asap , =D HAHA .

Happy

2009-06-25T20:29:00.002+08:00

Hey , actually i'm already happy already . haha .
thanks everyone , your every single comment did really touch my heart hahah ,
i hope i could be like the past hahaha , so nostalgic .
i went for bio stuff and found out haziq jun wern and hisyam playing haha

then i just randomly took out this crappy pic , HAHAH .

i don't know ,
whatever .
okay , i'm doomed cause i haven't finish quite a lot of hwks .
hhahaha ,

i had some fun today playing maple with zihui and ivan hahaha , crappy .
then aquila had roll back damn ,
hahah so me and ivan went to play cass ^^ .
hahaha what a maple freak i am .

okay whatever ,
tag replies ,
HUATING - hope so lah , =D , ahaha i say jk only mah !
ZUHAO - they don't want to interact with this noisy guy .
IGNATIUS - i think i found the answer , hahah !
HIGHLIGHT ,
HUATING - hahaha , seriously very de gan dong , THANKS UH GOOD FRIEND ! =D .
FATHIAH - hahaha thanks ! , haha maybe too much mistakes eh me . HAAH .
ZUHAO - yeah maybe ,
CHLOE - haha okay , i'll be myself then HAHA ! gaoxian never changed , right ^^ .

okay thats all , thanks very much for those people tagging ,
ilya ,
hahahaha , okay ,
off to do my stuffs , have a nice day
BYE =D .